⚠️TW⚠️ talks about vaping in this chapter at the end of the chapter!
She walks alone Head down, earbuds in and lost in thoughts. So many people around. How is it that they do not notice how unhappy she is? Is it that she is such a good actor, that they dont see anything wrong?
So many questions but so little answers... Through all these questions, Evelyn only had one she was dying to have an answer for.
How is he so happy while im so damn broken?Evelyn is so smart but this question is haunting her. The answer is not anywhere to be found. Maybe if she could find the answer, maybe it will help her find some peace. Help her find peace with him leaving her the way he found her.... Broken... Destroyed.... In pain.... Tired.....
As she is about to walk in the classroom she lifts her head and throws on a fake smile that not even her best friend could tell was fake.
As much as she wants them to notice how much pain she is in why should she show them if they do not care enough to even ask if she is okay? Why should she give the another reason to tease her or pick on her? Showing them would only bring her more pain then she is already in so she hides it. She pretends she's happy and the break up has not effected her. Pretends that her world has not just crumbled into a thousand little pieces! None the less the show must go on....
The classroom is loud but she barely notices because she is to focused on holding her tears in and her smile on. When she gets close to her seat she hears a voice say
"Good morning Evelyn"
She looks up and sees River not to be rude to him she says in a somewhat happy voice
"Morning"
By then she was at her seat and had her bag on the desk starting to unpack her binder. She placed her bag on the back of her chair.
When she was done placing her things where she needs them to be she went to meet with her best friend in the upstairs bathroom. Avery and Harper were already there waiting for her. Avery spoke first
"So fuck face called me last night"
(Fuck face is what we call her ex)
"Oh what did he want" i asked.
"The same as the last time he called to bitch about his criminal of a girlfriend" Avery said while rolling her eyes, "i wish he would just leave me alone im in a happy relationship and he just makes things harder for me" she continued.
"i know Av but all you have to do is block his number!" Said Harper
"Yea okay but it is not that simple he will just make another number and contact me" Explained Avery.
Harper and i just nodded because we knew it would continue a battle. Avery handed me the happy stick (aka her vape) and then i toke a hit then passed it to Harper.
We talked some more and passed the vape around till the bell rung for us to get to class. So we all went our separate ways to class and i let my smile drop back to the emotionless facial expression it was before going into the classroom....*Back in the classroom*
Evelyn sits quietly with her earbuds in listening to her sad music. Blocking out the world and the words of her fellow classmates. When her teacher, Miss Mandarin walks in she looks up and turns off her music. Then she starts taking out her earbuds slowly, awaiting for instructions from Miss Mandarin.
"Good morning class" said Miss Mandarin."Good morning" said most of the class.
"All right everyone get a textbook and turn to page ummmm" she says while flipping through the pages, "page 175"*everyone turning to page 175*
"Today we are gonna learn about AhL!"Miss Mandarin says excitedly.
*student raises their hand""Yes Wyatt"
"What is AHL?" Wyatt asked
"Well the AHL is an abbreviation of Active healthy living" explained Miss Mandarin.
The whole class went silent while she read.
"What is physical health well physical health is when you can fight off a disease, recovery time from an illness is shorter and your not tired when performing daily activities/ routines!"She paused for a minute before continuing.
"Now next way of healthy living is social health.""Oh no" i said under my breath.
Personally i dont really have a good social life i really tend to keep to myself. Mostly because i find shutting up and sitting alone helps keep the drama away. It is not 100% accurate but it works at least 70% of the time.
At this point Miss Mandarin has gotten to the end of the next way of active healthy living. I have zoned out at this point think about him all over again. His eyes, his lips, his body god how i craved it! He was like a drug that im addicted to. But then reality set in and i remember all over again that his eyes, his lips, his body are not for my eyes anymore. Just before i can start to cry the bell rung to dismiss us from our first period of the day.
She walked through the halls emotionless. Kept her head down so she did not have to make eye contact with him. She listened to some more sad music on blast, and just walked alone. She kept walking alone till she made it to her second period class. Then she proceeded to lay her things in her classroom and then proceeded to the bathroom to meet up with Avery and Harper.
As she walked to the bathroom she was thinking to herself today hasn't been that bad she hasn't been in a very bad sad episode. She hasn't wanted to cut her self, and she has barely thought about him. Shit She just thought about him!
*enters bathroom*
" hey Avery how was your first period class?"Evelyn asked."Meh it was boring, yours?" Said Avery
"Also boring, wheres harper?" Evelyn asked
"Oh i do not know probably with her boy toy" said Avery
"Ha yea..."said Evelyn but in the inside hearing the word boy toy just brought up more pain.
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Walks alone
Non-FictionEvelyn walks through her life on auto pilot after her high school sweetheart left her. Overwhelmed by life, overthinking why he left when he promised he wouldnt, depressed from other life troubles shes having. A-this story is based on my life right...