⚠️bad mental health day/ bad thoughts, very important but skip if it triggers you⚠️
Evelyn's thoughts
I wanna disappear, it is not like anyone would miss me if i did. They all just hate me anyway! I better they would show up to my funeral and be crying tears of joy that im dead. Why would the cry tears of sadness when all the do is bully me and say mean things? Do they not get that being targeted every damn day effects someone?
And those damn tell them from me surveys.
Are you getting bullied?
Oh ya like im definitely gonna say yes im getting bullied by my classmates on a daily basis. No im gonna lie through my teeth and say everything in my life is great. That nothing is wrong in my life, that my father did not abandon me, that the love of my life did not just stop loving me, that my world is falling in on its self! Yes im perfectly fine just keep going with what you were doing to me it definitely wont send me home crying or give me thoughts of doubt or cut myself tonight!
NO BECAUSE IM FINE! Im always fine even with tears in my eyes nobody give two shits unless i am gonna kill myself! Because thats just how our generation is they do not care about you unless you have a blade in your hand or a rope around your neck saying you will do it!!
I am sitting here on the fucking floor crying and fighting my thoughts to not start uncontrollably bang my head against this wall till it starts to bleed. And yet i bet all these kids think im just acting out so i dont have to do work. No im not doing that at all im trying to get my shit together so i can do this fucking assignment and have it be the best it can be. But i cannot do that with people breathing down my neck or yelling at me or saying these terrible things that get said to me daily!
You know what im done... im gonna do it... i have had enough of this world and the pain it puts me through.... Im done.... In another life my friends and family and Owen....
And with that Evelyn got a plan set in her mind. Nothing was gonna stop her from disappearing for good...
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Walks alone
Non-FictionEvelyn walks through her life on auto pilot after her high school sweetheart left her. Overwhelmed by life, overthinking why he left when he promised he wouldnt, depressed from other life troubles shes having. A-this story is based on my life right...
