Until she was on call with pretty boy. They were talking about him getting more posters for his room. Mateo came up with the bright idea to look in her eyes only for a picture for a custom poster for his room. Well in doing that Mateo remembered all the pictures and memories of him. It hit her like a tsunami. Her breathing quickly became hard and fast. She had to hang up....
The heartbreak flooded back to their memories and heart. Their heart shattered all over again. She was fighting but what was she fighting for anymore.
Mateo had already lost the love of her life, her family blames everything on her, she is constantly yelled at and for what? For them to pretend to care that she is so mentally fucked up that she is sitting in her room at night with her AirPods in blasted at max volume. What reason did she have to stay in this hell anymore... so she wrote
⚠️tw suicid⚠️
Dear Mom,
I love you and i am sorry. You were the best mom in the world. If your reading this ether i am gone or you were being nosey. You were my best friend and i know that you think suicid is the pussy way out but i can not fight anymore. I am tired and failed many many times, i cannot do it anymore..
If i am gone please give my sister my ps4 and tv. Let Levi say goodbye to me, do not change my room make the bed and clean it i guess and when you miss me go in and i promise ill be there with cliton and buddy.
My phone password is pretty boy. Do not cry please my mind is finally at peace and won't destroy me anymore. Give Avery my phone to play music at the funeral. Let her play wap and bitch out people i hated.
Keep Levi safe please.
I love you, im sorry
Love Evelyn❤️
Mateo was crying hard because they were thinking about how much it would hurt her mom and sister to lose her. She cared but not enough to keep her from cutting. They were her reasons to stay alive because who else would keep their crazy ass's in line. So Mateo put the letter in her top drawer beside her bed and let out as much tears as she could.
Once Mateo was done they felt numb. And they did not wanna feel like that anymore. So for a second, one singular second she lost control. And from there it was a blur....
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Walks alone
Non-fictieEvelyn walks through her life on auto pilot after her high school sweetheart left her. Overwhelmed by life, overthinking why he left when he promised he wouldnt, depressed from other life troubles shes having. A-this story is based on my life right...
