Walks alone

Chapter 5

Slowly Evelyn drifted to a deep sleep. She woke up to Owen laying beside her, holding her close. He was watch a documentary on his phone about war. She stared at him shocked that he was holding her. Shocked that he was laying beside her. When he realized she was awake he looked down at her and smiled. She loved his smile it always made her heart melt in a good way. She smiled back at him and said
"Im glad your here"

"Me too"he replied

"I love you so much baby please dont go away again" she said with tears in her eyes

"I love you so much more baby and i promise i wont" he answered with a smile on his face
    Then he lead forward to kiss her forehead.  It felt like a million butterflies in her stomach just from the touch of his lips on her forehead. She opened her eyes and just stared into his for a long time. She got lost in his eyes, to her his eyes were calming. His touch made her feel safe,and his sent made her feel protected. He was no doubt about it her entire world.
"You should go back to sleep baby"he told her

"But i wanna stay up and cuddle you and look at my baby for a little longer" she said with pouty eyes

"Okay baby but not to long. Do you wanna watch this with me?" He asked

"Sure"she replied

   Before they started watching the documentary she looked up at him again and leaned forward to kiss him. He leaned forward to kiss her back but before they kissed she woke up with a gasp...
          After she woke up she started to cry. She did not want to walk up, she wanted to stay there in his arms forever. She wanted to kiss his lips again, she wanted to feel safe again. Safe from the world but mostly safe from herself. She knew that he could keep her safe from herself. But at last it did not matter anymore, because he left. He left her with no safe feeling, no calming eyes and no protection.
She shed a few more tears then she went back to bed hoping to see him in her dreams but she did not dream again that night.
The next morning when she went for the bus, she felt more sad then she did the day before. Evelyn did not feel like talking to anyone. So she got on the bus said her good morning to her bus driver and went to sit down at the back of the bus. She put her earbuds on noise cancellation and played her said playlist. Evelyn did not even look from the window when Harper got on the bus. Harper knew something was wrong but she waited till Evelyn said something first before mentioning it.
Evelyn zoned out to her own little world, blocking out reality. In her world he did not leave, in her world he kept his promise. She loved that world that world made her happy, made her wanna live, made her wanna wake up the next day, made her fight her thoughts the way she used to. Now she just lets those thoughts consume her, now she does not wanna wake up the next day, now she does not wanna live, now she is not happy. Overall now she is broken, depressed and so lost in her own mind that she cannot find the way out.
When the bus finally makes it to the school driveway, Evelyn grabs her book bag and puts it on her back. She leaves her earbuds in and her head down while she waits for the bus to stop moving. Evelyn started to walk off the bus and into the building.
When she got in the building she went upstairs straight to the bathroom to the very last stall and just sat down. Put her knees to her chest and head against her knees and just toke some deep breaths. Being at the school hurts almost as much as being at home. At school she could see him which broke her, at school she had to pay attention which she could not do anymore. But at home there were memories, some amazing fucking memories. There was nowhere she could go to get away from him or the memories but the bathroom. So thats where she went.
And she balled, she tried to hold it back but she could not so she just cried. Till the bell rung and then she picked herself up. Put her mask up and dried her eyes, they were red.
"Great" she said to herself "just fucking great"
And with that she headed off to do yesterday all over again.