Linked To You | JJK | LJE

Chapter 54

"Why are you like this?" I finally yelled. "Why are you forcing me like this?!"

Jeon Jungkook looked at me and then looked down.

"You think this is a game right?!" I yelled louder. "Why is it that everything you do has to hurt me this much?! This isn't a game! This is real life! This is reality!"

Jungkook stared at me, but didn't open his mouth.

"Why are you forcing me?" I cried out.

"Because you never answered me!" he said, yelling this time.

"This is all your fault!" I yelled back at him. The waves from the beach were drowning out my yells. "I hate you! I hate you for making me feel this way! This is life! This isn't some kind of drama! This is my life and I need to live it!"

He watched me as I dropped to the sand, crying. He just didn't get it. Why was he forcing me...even now?

"I won't stop until I get my answer!" he said, dropping to his knees. He grabbed me by the shoulder and made me look at him.

"Fine..." I said softly. "I'll give you your answer."

He let go of me and sat back.

"If you really want to know...I love you."

Jeon Jungkook turned back to me shocked.

"I love you..." I whispered again as more tears fell down my face. It seemed like there was no way to stop it anymore. "I always loved you. I don't think I've ever stopped loving you."

He stared at me, not knowing what to say. All he could do was watch me cry...

"These six years...I managed to bury you deep inside my heart so I don't feel you anymore...but you were still there..." I continued. "After I saw you a few months ago...I thought I felt my heart break. Everything that I managed to bury came back up again. Joongi's attempts for three years to try to help me were gone in two seconds."

I wiped my tears and sniffed. I looked up at Jungkook who was staring at me with wide eyes.

"It's funny," I said, suddenly laughing a little. "I've been with Joongi Oppa for over three years and yet, I still can't bury our relationship which only lasted less than one year."

...

"Are you happy now?" I asked bitterly. "Are you happy?"

Somehow I wanted to push it in his face to tell him that he was right all along. To tell him that he could brag all he wanted.

But something in his eyes changed my mind and surprised me. He didn't look happy. He didn't look even a little happy or excited about what I just said.

He just stared at me...with pain in his eyes.

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I didn't know what we were doing here, but I guess it was my decision. There were so many things in my mind that I needed to clear up. I felt like if they weren't gone soon, I would go insane.

Twenty minutes later, Jeon Jungkook and I were sitting at a small table with soju in front of us.

"So..." I said quietly. "What have you been doing for the past six years?"

"Basketball."

I looked at him and he stared back. Did he think I was stupid? What else would he do...?

"What else?"

"Just basketball," he said seriously as he drained his first bottle. I took a large gulp of the bitter liquid. It stung as it ran down my throat.