I wish I could ignore the stares
The whispers and the way they treated me
I wish I could have taken how worthless they made me feel when I was with them as a red light.
But I couldn't bring myself to
I couldn't afford to lose my first Friends
The little jokes of how my body wasn't appealing turned serious
But I still batted an eye on the issue
When they'd shame me I'd laugh and ignore telling myself they didn't mean it.
But deep down. I knew I wasn't the friend someone can be proud of I wasn't the girl that deserved the world.
I was just a junk in this world just like they used to say before the dumped me and said how.
I was the shittiest friend they'd ever have
