It was a chance to see how far I'd fall into this abyss, the darkness, the sun never rose when I was with you
I was your night secret and for awhile I thought I was okay with that
I wouldn't put all the blame on you. I lied to myself when I said I'd stop lying. Ironic but I knew there was never an us. And honestly the idea of that made me entertain what we had for much longer
Yeah... this is where you'd say my way of thinking is sick and I'd have to agree
But you were with me right? As we danced to our shared playlist and bathed in the words of poetry.
You were in step with me encouraging our lost hearts to this game of deceit.
It was a chance to realize that indeed our numbness was eternal or maybe we weren't the flames we both needed.
it was a chance to break another piece off our broken hearts, a chance to see how far along we were fucked up
My bad tho; if it wasn't this way for you
