Dangerous(A One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 21

Alyssa's p.o.v.

It's been a month since I came back home. Everything was almost back to normal, but something felt off. My wounds were healed and my family was trying to pretend that nothing happened. Although I am happy to be with them I can't stop thinking about the others. Maybe they had already forgotten about me, but I haven't stopped thinking about what I would be doing if I was still with them. I still don't understand why they would treat me like that at the end I truly taught that they cared about me. I guess that's how it works I was never supposed to stay with them forever and they knew that all along. 

I got up from my bed and went into my restroom. I was shocked when I saw the girl looking back at me in the reflection. I had puffy eyes and dark circles under them as well. My hair was a mess it looked like I haven't slept in days. I shouldn't be thinking and looking like this I should be happy to be back with my family. I should be thankful to have the opportunity to be with them. I washed my face and used a little makeup to make myself more presentable. I brushed my hair and made my way downstairs.

When I got down I saw my family all sitting down having breakfast like usual. We eat breakfast, I help my mom clean, and then we hang out in the living room. My dad and Alex would occasionally leave to do business stuff and I would always be denied access to any of it. My mother wouldn't let me go out by myself in fear that I would get taken away again. I felt like I was trapped inside my own home. I didn't want to feel like this anymore but there was nowhere else I could go. I can always try to go back to England? Am I crazy? That I could possibly go back to England. My father would never let me. It could help me get closure about what happened. How would I even get back? I don't even know the location of the house. Even if I did know where they were located what would I even say to them? 

The saddest part is I don't have anyone else to talk to about this. If I bring this up to my family they would probably think I am crazy and would never let me out of here. Although they don't let me out already so why not try it? No! What?! Okay, I have to calm down and stop thinking about a crazy idea like this. Being locked up here is making me go crazy I have to get out alone. Ever since we came back my dad put more security on the house on watch all day. I can't take it anymore I have to get out of here. I stood up from the couch and started walking towards the door. 

"Alyssa where are you going?" My mother quickly asked before I could step out. 

"I'm just going outside mom I won't be too far," I said and looked at her. She had this desperate and scared look on her face.

"Yes okay give me a second I will go with you," She said and started getting her things. 

"No!" I yelled and she stopped "uh, sorry I meant no mom I can go outside by myself plus there is a lot of security out there I will be safe I promise." 

She looked hesitant and I know she was scared of letting me out of her sight.

"Alright that's fine I'll be right here if you need anything okay? I'll make some snacks," She smiled and walked into the kitchen. 

I walked outside and took a breath of fresh air. I looked around and saw security stare at me as I walked out. They got stiff and didn't take their eyes off of me as their lives depended on it. I sighed and walked towards the swings my parents had put out for Austin. I started rocking back and forth as I looked up to the sky. I don't want to sound ungrateful, but I don't feel happy here. It's not like I hate being with my family, but they have made me feel like a prisoner. I can't stand this feeling I don't know how to get rid of it. If only there was some way that I could get some type of closure and freedom. 

"Hey sis what's up?" I heard a voice ask. I pried my attention from the sky and looked at the person in front of me. 

"Can't I get any peace to myself?" I asked Alex and we laughed.

"Why would you want peace when you have an amazing annoying family like us?" he asked and sat down on the swing next to me. 

"It's not that I don't like being with you guys you know I love you all," I said and looked at him. 

"So what is it then? penny for your thoughts?" He asked me and I looked back up to the sky. How can I tell him about what I am feeling? He will never understand. 

"You know I actually don't have a penny, but I would actually like to know your thoughts. I want to try to help you out I know that you haven't been yourself since you got back. I know that there is something on your mind and I want to know what it is." He said and I felt my eyes water up. 

"It's complicated Alex. I don't even understand why I am feeling this way." I said to him. 

"How is it that you feel?" He asked me.

"I don't know how to explain it without hurting anyone's feelings," I told him. 

"You won't hurt anyone we are your family we will understand and try to help you with all that we got," He told me. 

"I am just not ready to talk about it Alex I hope you can understand that," I told him. 

"Alright, but whenever you want to talk you know you can always count on me." He said and I looked at him. 

I don't think I can ever tell any of them the truth so. I might just have to come up with something else for now just in case any of them ask me again. 

"Come on let's go inside I saw mom making some badass sandwiches," Alex said and we laughed.

"How can you eat so much and still be in good shape seriously I see you eating all the time now," I told him

"I don't know I guess I was just destined to be so awesome and hot," He said and flexed his arms. 

"Ew come on let's go before you start doing something stupid or say something else that will make you so weird," I said and stood up. 

"You are the weird one," He said and stood up as well. 

"Yeah sure let's go with that," I said as we headed into the house.

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-A