We walked to the restaurant cause it was down the street from our hotel. We got there just in time. The host sat in a booth isolated from everybody else. We sat opposite of each other and looked at the menu. Everything on it looked good, I couldn't decide on what I should get. Alicia was sitting there taking pictures on snap. Pose after pose, I lost myself in how good she looked. Her breast damn near busting out of the blue flannel crop top she had on. She caught me staring and started messing with me.- what boo?- she asked as she placed her hands on her chest.- just wait until we get back to the room- I called the waitress over and ordered some drinks and appetizers. We were drunk as hell. We got kicked out cause of all the laughing and yelling we did. As we were making our way to the room, we spotted a strip club. We were at the bar drinking when Sofia approached us.- hey yallll! What y'all doing down here?- she said all excited. I was sober enough to remember I ain't like this bitch so I didn't talk.- girl my mannn brought me down - Alicia said as she held my arm. I continued taking shots.- girl you should come back to our room, we can all hang out - Alicia suggested.- yesss let's do it- Sofia said agreeing. She can't be serious. Sofia started taking shots with us and after 30 minutes all of us were sloppy drunk. We made it back to the hotel. I struggling trying to open the door with the key.- baeee you gotta do it like this!- Alicia said sliding the key thru. The door opened and she pulled me inside, Sofia followed. She started tonguing me down while Sofia watched. I looked over at Sofia, she was feeling on herself watching us. Alicia ushered her to us. She backed away from me and went to Sofia. They started kissing and undressing each other. They looked over at me and giggled. Alicia went and retrieved the camera. She propped it up on the dresser and made her way back to us. Sofia placed her hands on my chest and rubbed my pecs. She slowly made her way down to my abs and then to my jeans. I realized what she was doing and stopped her.- bae I'm not fucking with this, I don't like this girl- I said backing up- just think about how much money we'll make though -she said holding my face.- we won't ever have to work again- I looked at Sofia then back at her.- just this one time, that's it- I said sternly. I grabbed my bottle of Hennessy from the dresser and downed it.They nodded their heads. Sofia ran to go hit record on the camera. Alicia was rubbing my print as Sofia pulled my shirt off. I grabbed Sofia's face and kissed her. I can't believe I'm really about to fuck this bitch. Let me just get this shit over with. Alicia undid my pants and pulled them down. Both of their hands took hold of me. Both of them went down on their knees and looked up at me. I took another sip of my drink and stared at them. Sofia pulled my boxers down and kissed the tip of my dick. Up until this point she ain't never been with a nigga before, only women. She took me into her mouth slowly. Her head wasn't all that good but I faked it for the camera. I let out a few bullshit moans. She finally ended my torture and moved her head. Both her and Alicia then started kissing each other while my tip was in their mouths. Alicia started topping me and that shit made me bust so fast. She then proceeded to kiss Sofia sloppily, my nut dripping from out their mouths, down their chins, and onto their breast. I liked that nasty ass shit. I helped both of them up and we made our way to the bed. I could tell Sofia was way more into me than she was into Alicia. I laid onto the bed and Alicia laid next to me. She was kissing my neck and leaving hickies on my chest. Sofia straddled me and slid down my dick slowly. She was shaking hard so I grabbed her waist and helped her. She had some pretty ass moans I can't even lie.- oooooo shiitttt -she moaned out. She rubbed her breast with one hand and held my wrist with the other. I felt her starting to cream on me. Alicia sat on my face facing Sofia. I sucked on her clit as those 2 started kissing. Sofia orgasmed and threw her head back in pleasure. I felt Alicia cumming so I sucked a bit harder. She reached back and tried pushing my head away. She was too late, her juices started rushing out. Sofia got off of me and started jerking me. I was still giving Alicia head through her orgasm, she hated when I did this. I came and it coated Sofias hands. She licked up every ounce of it. About 10 minutes later we are finished and just laid there exhausted. Sofia was sound asleep on my chest while Alicia and I were talking- we did the dumbest shit just now- I whispered.- boo it'll be fine, it was only once. We experienced something new -she said kissing me.- I don't like new, you all I need- I held her face. We passionately kissed for 12 minutes before falling asleep. That morning I woke up to the sound of running water. I got up and went into the bathroom, they were showering together.- anthonyyyy get in with us- Sofia said with a sad face. I put a shower cap on and got in. Alicia lathered soap on her rag and started bathing me.- we just gone act like last night ain't happen? - I asked looking down at them.- what about it?- Alicia said.- it was so good that we don't need to talk about it- said Sofia.- man whatever I guess- we wrapped up about 15 mins later. They were getting ready to go shopping while I changed the sheets.- baby you sure you don't wanna come with us?- nah I gotta clean up this room, shits a mess- but pleaseee Anthony, don't do us like that- Sofia chimed in. I sighed,- I'll go - I slipped my concords on and my fitted. We left for the mall. We finally went home after 5 days and had enough content to post for months. I made sure that after that I never had to deal with Sofia again. I hated that bitch. Nobody was home when we got there so i decided to edit the videos. Alicia came and stood next to my chair- papi our video is trendinggg!- she said as she looked at her phone.- that's good but I hate that that bitch in it- stop it, we're done with her okay?- alright, I'm sorry - I pulled her down and kissed her. She was now in my lap and looking back to kiss me. She started sucking on my tongue. She took my hand and placed it on her pussy. I just now noticed that she had nothing on but a tank top and panties. I slid her panties to the side and started fingering her. Her head fell back next to mine, she opened her legs to allow me more access. I spun the chair to face the mirror. She looked at it.- Anthony yesss pleaseeee - she said repeatedly between breaths.- tell me what you want- I whispered into her ear.- I wanna cummmm pleaseeee go fasterrr- she barely made out. I did as she asked and she couldn't take it. She kept trying to close her legs. She grabbed my hand trying to move it but I ultimately won. She reached back and held my head, gripping my hair tightly. I felt the liquid covering my hands but it didn't stop me. I kept going until she came again.- boooo that's enoughhh- she uttered out. I brought my hand to my mouth and sucked my fingers. She turned to face me, then out of nowhere she started choking me.- the hell you doing?- I was caught off guard. She just started giggling but it slowly transitioned into moaning. I looked down and she was grinding on my print. She choked me harder as her breathing got shorter, she was bout to nut again. She collapsed on to me, trembling. I held her and rubbed her back. She outdid herself like always. I heard the front door open. Ivonne, Camilla, and the kids were home. I held her and went to lock the door. Then went to the bathroom and showered. Camilla was walking to her room and heard the water.- oh my god! When did you guys get back?!- she said happily from the hall.- this morning! - Alicia yelled back.- hurry up, we missed y'all!- she said. She then went into her room and put her bags down. We finished up and got out. We threw on some chill clothes and greeted everybody. I picked Camille and Riyah up.- carwos! -Riyah said hitting my face- wassup baby you missed uncle didn't you, and I know you missed me too cammy -I said kissing her cheek. She blushed and covered her face acting all embarrassed. Jay was sleeping.- i need to talk you!- Ivonne said in a angry tone.- I'll catch up with y'all later.- I told the girls as I put them down. Alicia could tell her mother was about to go off. Ivonne and I went on the back patio.- what is this I'm hearing about you and my baby girl making some sex movies?!- she scolded at me- we needed some money and shit moms. That's what's paying the bills right now- Anthony that's no way to live! Y'all two are better than that boy! And what about the kids! Camille is 10, those kids at school might see that and start teasing her.- alright ma you kinda exaggerating it and if that is the case we'll sit down and talk to her about it. It's just sex- y'all need to get it together, y'all are a mess -she shook her head in disappointment and went back inside. I followed and went off to the side to tell Alicia. She was furious.- who the hell is she? "We a mess" girl what? Coming from the same woman who's husband abused me and she turned a blind eye! Anthony get her out my house now! RIGHT NOW!!- she was pacing, her face red.- i went to Ivonne- listen you gotta go, you upset Alicia- how cause I told the truth? She needs to her hit together!- bro just go I don't feel like dealing with this shit right now!- you never can deal with anything! You're not a real man, you're a coward! Selling drugs, nothing but a bum!- Alicia heard her came from around the corner- don't talk about my man like that! You can't talk about anyone being a coward!- Alicia said fiercely.- let him say it himself, you always running to his defense like a dog. You're just as sorry as him! All this shit he's put you through and you still here like a jackass!- HE'S THE ONLY PERSON WHO EVER DEFENDED ME!! HE WAS THE ONE THERE, NOT YOU!! MY OWN MOTHER, YOU PICKED A MAN WHO YOU KNEW WAS DOING SOMETHING HE SHOULDNT HAVE AND YET YOU CHOSE HIM!!! A 32 YEAR OLD MAN OVER YOUR OWN LITTLE 6 YEAR OLD GIRL!!!- THAT IS A LIE ALICIA!!! HE NEVER DID ANYTHING TO YOU!! YOU WERE JUST MAD I LEFT YOUR DADDY!- I WAS 6 MA, 6!!!!- Camilla waddled downstairs and watched. She tried holding Alicia back.- baby just go upstairs and cool off- I said holding her hand.- NO SHE NEEDS TO HEAR THIS!!! I TRIED LETTING IT GO BUT I NEVER CAN!! THAT MAN STAINED ME FOR LIFE AND YOU DID NOTHING!! I WOULD SLEEP IN BETWEEN YOU TWO AND YOU WOULD WATCH HIM TOUCH ME AND ALL YOU WOULD DO IS TURN THE OTHER WAY!!- Camilla started crying. She never knew this. Ivonne was angry at the truth. She began crying as well.- ANTHONY DID SOMETHING!! HE PROTECTED ME!! HE MADE SURE WILL NEVER TOUCHED ME AGAIN!!- Ivonne looked at me.- ...you ...were the one who killed him?- she asked me. I looked away, I did it but I'm not admitting to anything. She didn't say another word. She got her bags and left. Alicia broke down in my arms and gripped my shirt, almost ripping it.- it's okay, it's over now alright?- Camilla sat on the couch to process everything she heard. Cammy didn't understand what any of it meant. She just knew grandma wasn't coming by fr a while. 2 days went by and Alicia hasn't been well. I been catering to her making sure she's good. I was making her some soup when wiz called.- aye boy what been up with you?- shit not much nigga you know- man how everybody is, my lil girl and lady alright?- nigga you know ima make sure they are- preciate brah, I ain't go much time left in this bitch- yeah nigga I know, just don't come out and get back on that shit- I won't fam I'm done with it- I'm proud of you boy, lemme put yo people on the phone. -I went to Camilla's room and handed her the phone. Her and Riyah talked up a storm to wiz. Shit made me smile. I left them some privacy and went In my room to check on Alicia. She was on her computer reading a blog, her hair in a messy bun.- you good?- I just want to come lay down and hold me- she sniffled.- I will, let me go turn the stove off.- I went downstairs and turned the stove off. I fixed her some soup in a bowl and took it to her. She sat up and started eating. I laid next to her and rubbed her back.- what movie is this?- I asked trying to make conversation.- lovely bones, the girl got kidnapped and now her family's torn- she said in a low depressing tone. I nodded my head, I was low key scared.- let's put some positive shit on -I put on mission impossible cause what the fuck. She finished her soup and laid back. Everything was going fine and then she just burst out into tears.- step out for a minute, please?- she said. I respected her wishes and left out. I went in jay's room and played around with him. We played basketball on his mini goal. I let that lil nigga think he was doing something. Camille was on FaceTime with some of her friends from school playing some game. 3 days later I was sitting in the garage smoking. Alicia came in and sat next to me.- hey boo- she said happily.- wassup beautiful? you good now?- I asked handing her the blunt. She nodded her head as she hit it.- you wanna talk about it?- she asked me- about what baby?- what happened to us. You never told me about what happened with your coach- she said holding me. I instantly got sick.- I don't wanna remember it bae- I told her trying not to cry. She looked at me and rubbed my face. Her eyes were watery.- you can trust me- I had to take some deep breaths.- he was my dads best friend, he was like my uncle. One day he picked me up from school and was taking me home. He told me he was going to get me some new sneakers. That's when he parked in this parking lot and told me to touch him- I started squirming remembering this. I couldn't continue, I broke down. Alicia was already crying.- come on boo let it out -she said wiping my tears.- I ain't know what I was doing bae, I thought it was a good thing. He made me drink it- I was done. I couldn't say anymore.- baby it's okay, it wasn't your fault please know that!- she reassured me- yes it was, I could've told and I never did, he did that shit to me for 2 years.- I said through tears.- I still see this nigga around, i wanna kill that nigga!- no Anthony don't! We can expose him and save someone else from him!- who gone believe me?- I was angry. I got up grabbing my keys and made my way to my truck. She followed me.- baby where you going?- I need to go talk to my pops- I'm coming with you!- she hopped in and we went to my dads apartment. I knocked and he let me in.- los nigga, my lil boy wassup?- he said hugging me tight. He went and hugged Alicia- how you been sweetheart?- good celo- she replied. He let us in.- man I was just talking about you, you remember Hig right?- coach hig?- yeah he here, he stopped by- I was infuriated hearing this. He led us to the living and there sat the man who ruined me.- Tonio!- he said getting up and hugging me. I was repulsed, this nigga serious. Alicia came and gently pulled me. She whispered in my ear.- baby calm down, okay- she rubbed my back. I was clenching my fists.- los you alright.- nah, you don't know what this nigga did to me!- I said getting in higs face. I towered over him, I wasn't a 4'7 lil boy no more. We stared each other down. Alicia got in between us and tried to gently push me back.- TELL HIM WHAT YOU DID!!!- I yelled.- I ain't do nothing boy! You ain't right in the head!!- he replied.- los what he did to you?!- pops was heated. He stared hig down. Alicia was scared and trying to calm us both down.- y'all stop it! - you sick as fuck hig!!- I yelled. Alicia was trying her hardest but I completely ignored her.- YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID TO ME NIGGA! YOU FUCKED ME UP, TOOK MY INNOCENCE AWAY!!!- YOU RAPED MY SON NIGGA?!- my dad got in his face and started going in. I pulled him off and took him away. Higgins got up holding his nose and ran out. My dad broke down crying.- why you never told me?!- pops I was young as fuck I ain't know any better- when did it happen?- he asked through tears.- 04, shit went on until 06- I had this nigga around and he was fucking with you the whole time?!- he was heated.- celo you didn't know, don't hold it against yourself!- Alicia said reassuring him. 4 days later I was just getting home around 1 am. I had went out with Jp and dman to see a boxing match. I went upstairs and checked the kids rooms. They were sound asleep. I then went in my room and settled in. Alicia was sleeping peacefully. I put my phone and shit on the counter and hopped in the shower. Alicia had woke up to come pee.- baby when you got here?- bout 30 minutes ago -I replied as I bathed. She finished and wiped. She got up, undressed and joined me in the shower. She held me from behind.- you okay?- I asked- yes, I just wanna hold you- we got out 20 minutes later and laid down. We fell asleep watching a documentary. That morning we were all at the table eating. Jay was sitting in my lap and I was feeding him pancakes. Camille looked over at me.- dad, I got my period!- she told me excitedly.- what?- I asked looking at her and Alicia- already?- Alicia looked away.- it happened when you were gone- cammy said drinking her orange juice.- baby i gave her the cycle talk, you giving her the other one.- said Alicia.-I gotta do it now?- I was dreading this. My baby girl growing up too fast, I ain't even know girls could get their period at 10.- yes daddy please!- Camille said. I sighed and braced myself.- bae I can't - Anthony talk to her, now!- Alicia scolded at me.- baby you know about the birds and bees?- yess dad, I'm not 3- tell me bout it then.- it's when a boy and girl have sex and make babies. - that's just a small part of it baby- I replied to her.- some people have sex just because it feels good, not for babies.- cammy nodded her head.- and it's not just girls and boys who have sex. Right bae?- I said looking at Alicia.- yesss boo, it can be girls with girls or boys and boys like uncle jp and nene- can they have kids?- cammy asked. I shook my head no.- and it's nothing wrong with that, not everybody wants kids.- I said getting up collecting their plates.- so can somebody like boys and girls?- she asked innocently- of course they can, I like both- Alicia replied- what?!- Camille said shocked. Alicia chuckled.- it's called being bisexual- mommy! daddy did you know?- yeah, she told me when we were young, right before she had you- it was hard coming out, some thought I was faking it and shamed me, but daddy didn't do that- Alicia smiled to keep from crying. I rubbed her back and kissed her.- that's so mean- cammy said. Jay climbed off of me and into Alicia's arms. He held her.- cammy whatever you like whether it's boys or girls or both, know we here for you no matter what, alright?- cammy got up and hugged me.- thank you daddy!- no problem baby, you ain't gotta be scared of us- she nodded her head. An hour later we were watching a movie in the living room. Cammy was on the floor on her phone and jay was sleep on the other couch. Alicia was laying on my chest playing with my beard.- you did good- I did?- I said smiling.- we have to get more detailed with her but yes baby, it wasn't bad.- she kissed me.- bae I'm not ready for this- I whispered.- we can't shield them forever. Cammys gonna be a teenager soon, this is the right time to talk to her- I know but this came at us quick, she was just 4 not too long ago- it'll be okay- she reassured me. Later that day around 3, I was mounting our new tv up in the room. Alicia was on the bed watching me.- you ready for your birthday? My baby gone be 29!- she said excitedly.- nooo, I'm old as hell bae- says who? You are not old boy!- I blushed and finished the tv.- how is it?- I stepped away and looked at it.- you can do everything, it's crazy!- shit, that's pops fault- he made you into a good man -she held me.- I could've been better, I did you wrong so many times- we're past that. I forgave you and you forgave me- she laid her face on my chest. My phone started ringing. I took it from my pocket and answered.- I'm out just in time for my nigga g day!- wiz said happily.- bout time nigga, I'm sliding to you right now!- I hung up.- bae they just let wiz out- yessss! That's great boo!- I'll take Camilla with me, watch the kids- I kissed her and grabbed my keys. I went to the guest room.- come on sis von out- I ain't never see a pregnant woman get up as fast as she did.- Anthony stop lying!- I swear! I'm finna go get him- she threw her slippers on and followed me to the truck. We pulled up to the center and there he was out front. I put my truck in park and we hopped out. Camilla held wiz tightly and broke down.- girl stop all that- he said as he rubbed her back.- don't leave me like that again!- never again ,that's dead- he looked over at me- thank you nigga, you saved me- thank yourself my nigga- we went back to my house. Wiz made up lost time with Riyah and C. I went on the patio to smoke. Cammy and jay went to wiz.- uncle! Where's your hair!?- cammy said rubbing his waves.- I ain't want it no more- he laughed. Alicia came out on to patio.- you okay?- she asked. I shook my head no. She sat in the chair next to mine. - you been like this for a while- she said holding my other hand.- I'm not right in the head. My mom, jr, devin, Higgins, you, prison, me getting shot, it's just everything. I can't go on any longer- she looked at me sadly. She knew exactly what I was saying.- I'm listening, let it out- I walk around like I'm just that nigga but I'm hurting inside and I don't know how to deal with it- I hit my blunt again.- jay walked in on me holding my gun the other day, I was about to do it until I saw him. He didn't even know what was going on. He ran over to me and hugged me.- Alicia was crying hearing this. I been depressed since forever.- he kept saying he loved me, all I could do was cry -I put my head down feeling my tears.- awwww Anthony, we gotta get you better- she said rubbing my hair.- I can't get better, I tried- don't say that! We'll figure it out- I held her close. After 7 or so minutes she backed up and wiped my face.- let's go inside I have to cook, okay?- she said. I nodded my head and we went inside. She headed to the kitchen while I went to join everyone else. When I sat down jay and cammy ran over and sat in my lap.- daddy your birthday's tomorrow!!- cammy said holding my face. I flashed a small smile.- daddy old!- jay yelled out. Everybody laughed.- you a lil asshole!- I joked. The next day was still asleep. Alicia and the kids were preparing everything for the mini celebration they put together. They called my pops, nene, jp, and wiz and them over. I woke up at 10, I felt like shit. Though I ain't feel my best I didn't wanna be a bitch about it. I did my morning routine and put my fit on. It was a green polo sweater, light blue jeans, & my pine green 3's. I put a matching cap on and went downstairs. The kids ran to me.- happy birthday daddy!!- they screamed. I knelt down and held them.- thank you babies- I kissed them. Jp and nene were on the couch eating when they saw me.- yesssss friend you almost to the 30 club!- nene said snapping his fingers.- lil los, happy b day man- jp said. I went over and dapped him up.- preciate y'all, y'all just brightened a nigga day up. Y'all been good?- man yeah, peep this - jp said as he held nenes hand up.- damnnn you said yes?- I asked nene- and did purr- he said rubbing his hair.- that's wassup- Carlos baby come here- Alicia called from the kitchen.- I'll chop it up with y'all later- I went over to her. She had just took my cake out the oven and sat it on the stove. She was taking her oven mitts off when I approached her.- you called me? - yesss, happy birthday baby boy -she pulled me to her and kissed me.- girl you better stop playing - I chuckled.- you're gonna love today- she held my hands- I'm not doubting it- I replied.- let me finish up- she kissed my cheek and turned back to the stove. I sat at the table and the kids came to me.- up dada up!- jay said. I picked him up and kissed his cheek.- cake mommy!- he yelled as Alicia brought the cake and sat it on the table. Everybody gathered around and sung happy birthday. Alicia stood behind me with her hands on my shoulders. When they finished everybody clapped and I blew my candles out. Pops and wiz brought over a big ass box that was wrapped up.- los this shit right here priceless- wiz said looking at me. I looked around at everyone, they were waiting for me to open it. I tore the box open and there sat a picture frame. I pulled it out and instantly got emotional. It was a collage of all my important moments. My kids, the only photos I have with my mom, and some more shit. I covered my face and just broke. Camille and Alicia held on to me .- I had to dig for those pictures son- pops said as he rubbed my back.- frieeendd don't cry!- nene said wiping a tear from his face. I got up and hugged them.- we love you g- wiz said.- I love y'all too- I stuttered out. Pops had to hold me up, I could barely stand.- it's something else - Alicia said as she held my hand. She led me outside and there sat a brand new pick up truck with a dirt bike in the back. She put the keys in my hand.- man ain't no way !- I said excitedly. I picked her up and kissed all over her face.- okayyyy boy go look at it!- she laughed. I put her down and jogged over to it. I hopped in, it was full of more gifts. Everybody was smiling watching me act like a kid. I cranked it up and started revving the engine.- that mf a beast- wiz said inspecting the truck.- hell yeah, ima tune it up some more though- I replied.- baby let me get some pictures of you.- I got out and posed. She took the pictures and showed me- you like them?- I love em- I said kissing her cheek. A couple hours later the kids were upstairs playing so us adults started drinking. Alicia and I were in the kitchen holding each other.- you know how to make a nigga feel better- I whispered in her ear.- I hated seeing my boo down like that- she said rubbing her fingers through my hair. Camilla came into the kitchen and cut some more cake.- these kids can eat!- she joked.- you been pregnant since forever girl, when they dropping?-said Alicia- any day chile, I want my body back!- I know that's right!- Camilla laughed and went back to wiz. She had him feeding her the cake. Nene and jp were dancing. Pops and his longtime girl Evelyn were talking and laughing. Shit felt good being surrounded by family. The party ended at 10 pm and by 10:45 we were in bed. She looked at me as I fluffed my pillow.- baby you still tense?- nah, I'm chilling- I was lying. Today was amazing but some sadness was still there.- come let some pressure off then- she slipped out her gown and put her hand in my briefs.- this ain't your fault- I don't care -she tongued me down. I wasn't gone decline her offer. She brought her hand up to her mouth and spit in it. She took hold of me once again and started jerking. She pulled her face away from mine and stared at me.- you like that?- she asked as she showed special attention to my tip.- mmmmm- she spit some more and continued. She positioned herself in reverse cowgirl, still holding my dick. She grinded her clit against my tip, moaning while doing so. She eased me in and rode slowly. She was slamming down on a nigga with some force, creaming everywhere. With each motion her ass was breathing heavier. She moved forward causing me to fall out.- too muuuchh!- she stuttered out as she laid on her back.- you lazy as hell - I joked as I got on top of her.- shut up, it's not funny!- she reached down and put me in. I hovered over her as I stroked her walls slowly. She placed her arms around my neck and stared at me. I reached down with my left hand and lightly pushed on her lower stomach. She held my wrist firmly,
