When I'm alone,
With music in my ears,
Embracing the solace of home.
When my eyes feel heavy,
But sleep doesn't come.
I end up thinking, remembering.
Joy came first,
When the laughter of friends
Rings in this empty room.
When the reminiscence
Of all this time spent together
Comes back rushing.
Nostalgia came second,
When the smiles of people
Not here anymore, become clear.
When the recollection
Of a lost time
Falls on my mind.
When I'm the only one,
That can be heard breathing,
In this small room.
When my mind is blank,
And I'm drowsy.
I end up thinking, remembering.
Fear came third,
When stories and warnings
Mess with my thoughts.
When the reminder
Of all this anxiety
Places itself before everything.
Horror came fourth,
When things no one should see
Return to taunt me.
When the echo
Of blood and death
Teleports me to a different place.
When I'm by myself,
With my screams as only melody,
Trying to feel the warmth once again.
When I can't doze off anymore,
And I'm drowning.
I end up thinking, remembering.
Yearning came fifth,
When the longing, the ache
Of a simple hug makes me cry.
When the desires
Of simple things and words
Become omnipresent.
Love came last,
When the simple thought
Of your smiles calm me down.
When the memories
Of all of you
Are all that matter.
When I'm laying in my bed,
With music as my only companion
In the comfort of my home.
When my eyes are closing,
And I can now sleep.
I end up saying goodnight to the memories.
