I love them a little too much, a little too well.
I love them more than I can comprehend.
Their smile makes me feel warm and powerful.
Their laughter brings me back to life.
Their touch sends fire to my veins, hope to my brain.
I love them a little too much,
And it scares me a lot.
On the white wall, there's a paper,
"I accept my desire to be loved", it says,
There were other sentences,
But this one struck me like lightning.
Accept your love, accept your vulnerability,
Accept your chance of being happy.
The scariest of desires, needed to experience the sweetness of living.
Don't forget to accept the desire of others to love you.
Their worries freeze me every time, I don't understand it.
Maybe I convinced myself it wouldn't last,
That it's only a matter of time before they leave.
I'll make them happy, keep them safe, until they leave.
I want to believe that you'll be here forever, but nobody stays.
Can I be your nobody then?
Afraid of living, afraid of loving,
Afraid of being loved, afraid of life itself.
I am tired of being afraid.
I want to be able to say 'I love you" without fear,
I want to hold their hand and say how beautiful they are.
I'm tired and afraid, and very much in love.
I breathe in and out,
Just wait, just wait, just wait.
I'm patient, I know how to wait.
Just a little too insecure,
And somewhat bad at understanding people.
I can wait, don't worry,
But your silence makes me scared.
In the dead of night, I wonder.
You are not okay, and I'm lost,
How can we find ourselves when the stars are clouded?
I don't have the courage to ask,
You don't want to stress me, a bit too late if you ask me.
I feel like I'm beating around the bush,
When was the last time your hand hurt?
My love, how are you?
My voice is silent, my head buzzes.
I don't remember the last time I cried.
My love, what about you?
I'm scared of life, of love,
I just need you to trust me.
I love you a little too much, a little too well.
I love you more than I can understand.
Your smile makes me feel happy and alive.
Your laughter brings me back to reality.
Your touch sends hope to my veins, fire to my brain.
I love you a little too much,
And it scares me a lot.
