sparks - a supercorp fan fic

i will always choose you; even if you don't choose me.

Lena's pov;
(4 months later; 3 weeks prior to wedding)

Kara has a new friend, you might even say they are bestfriends. They've hung out everyday for the past 2 months. It sounds and looks like the beginning of me and Kara's friendship, which led to a relationship. We fell inlove more and more everyday, we hung out everyday, we exchanged eye contact, we flirted, we even cuddled at night in the most platonic way. But we weren't dating, we were scared to admit our love. I'm so afraid that Kara is starting to fall for her. She calls herself Ryleigh Manson. Kara's always like, 'ryleigh this, ryleigh that.' It's draining, I feel like i'm losing my trust in Kara, but most of all, I feel like i'm losing her completely.

I sipped whiskey, bourbon, or whatever i could find in my stash. Drinking my problems away was always my specialty. Especially when i've hit rock bottom. I see Kara everyday, i'm there, but i'm not truly there. My days are filled with overthinking, I don't mean to, I should trust her. "I love you." She says leaving to go hang with Ryleigh, but does she even mean it? My heart aches for her attention, her love. The only way I know is to force myself on her, but that would be terrible. So, I keep my mouth shut.

Kara's pov;

"I'm jealous." Was the last thing I expected out of my fiancé's mouth, but it's what came out. She thinks I have feelings, real feelings for Ryleigh. And so with that I just walked out. I went to the only person that came to my mind. And yes, it was Ryleigh but she's my bestfriend, and now that I think about it, it should have been Alex.

"Hey. What's wrong?" I walked in and Ryleigh was crying. "You're getting married." She said sniffling. "Yes? You've known since I met you. What's different now?" I asked. "I'm falling for you, and I didn't mean to but I am. I'm sorry if this will ruin anything between you and Lena." She said and I squinted, obviously confused. "What? Why would you telling me this change or ruin anything between me and Lena? Do you not hear the way I talk about her? Or the way we look as if we could stare at eachother for hours. I'm inlove with her, I don't feel anything for you and I never have for a second. She is the love of my life. Our friendship was nice while it lasted but i'm done with you." I walked out, I did what I do best.

Then I realized it was wrong for me to walk out on Lena. I would have been just as jealous, thinking my soon to be wife was falling inlove with her bestfriend. I could never love anyone else, I just couldn't. She's my everything. I really wished the best to Ryleigh, I was rude to her but I hardly regret it. The only thing I regretted was walking out on Lena, there's no telling what I left her feeling. She's probably empty, but I didn't bother to notice because I was too focused on something else. I didn't mean to, i've just felt trapped, and not because of Lena. I honestly don't know how to describe it but I needed a get away. I should've talk to Lena about it.

I made my way back to our home. I was coming up with a big apology in my head. Then I scratched it out, then I thought of using it again. Moral of the story, I just planned on walking in there and having a conversation about it. We were getting married soon and the last thing I wanted to do was ruin things, or anything. But then I realized it was too late, I already fucked up.

I walked into the house and into our bedroom. Expected Lena to be there, waiting. But what I was greeted with was nothing pretty. I froze. The drawers were pulled out, all of Lena's clothes missing. I was ready to give up. And then there was the note.

                                'I'm sorry I wasn't enough. I fucked up and I know you love her. So
                                 i'm letting you have her. I'll always love you Kara.'
                              
                                  - Lena.