The Beautiful Memories

𝘚 𝘦 𝘷 𝘦 𝘯 𝘵 𝘦 𝘦 𝘯

I didn't want to face life without her, my life seems unbelievable.

How could it turn out this way?

"Aurelia, we have to go," Kelly says walking out Daren follows behind her.

I was completely lonely, I just had 3 dogs, I guess that's all I needed.

I quit my job I still had this girls phone, there was a lot going on.

Days and days and days of endless crying and sleeping, I haven't ate in a week. Till one day someone knocked at my door, I wasn't expecting that. I open it

"Hey, I uh need to get my phone back," Cecilia smiles at me, I wasn't expecting it to be her. I didn't say a word and returned her phone, before I could shut the door "Wait," Cecilia stops the door from closing, I open it back up "Yes?" I say confused "Look, I'm sorry about your mother, it was terrible," she says grabbing onto my shoulder

"It's ok I'm fine," I say in a shaky voice, I take her hand off of my shoulder "Here's my number." She grabs a piece of paper from the back of her back pocket and hands it to me.

She walks away and I close the door.

I sigh

Maybe I should talk to her

I was wore out from just doing that, she came out so far to get her phone.

I felt horrible, it must've been really important to her then. I mean that's understandable, I wouldn't go that far for my phone but it could have special memories like mine did, with my mother

Id rather not be reminded about my mom. I never knew it could turn out this way...

I got into the steamy shower I sit in there thinking about my mom, she wasn't always great but now I'm an orphan.

And so are my... siblings

My mom tried to save me and she did whatever she could.

My life sounds like it's apart of a marvel movie, where is my superhero at. I need some saving from this life

I wondered how this could just happen in anyone's life

Am I that unlucky?

The water flowing down my back while I stand there with a blank stare at the wall, constantly thinking about my mother. It replays in my head I have lost my entire family.

My moms side everyone died, except her sister. I don't know where she is. She had moved to a different country and lost contact with us.

My dads side didn't even live near here, he moved away when he was 18 he hated it there. He lost contact with them they don't even know I exist

It kinda sucks, we've had Easter like once and never did any holidays not even Christmas.

My parents were too poor or too busy to do any of that stuff with us, we had to figure out things on our own like throw fake stuff for all of us

I turn around looking at the shower head while the water hits me

I feel to sad to cry. I felt my vision go bright and in circles,

I blacked out

Before I hit the ground I wake up and catch myself, I haven't been eating it has affected me

I turned off the water and stared for a moment. I slide the curtains and reached for a towel, before I did I looked at myself

I looked like I was just bones you could see my ribs

I stared at myself, I started to cry

I woke up.

I had passed out again, I could barely get up.

I sat up, I was naked still.

I grabbed a towel to cover myself and I walk out,

My dogs wag their tails and acted like they haven't seen me in years

I fell onto my bed and fell asleep

I was so exhausted

—past—

Her house

Aurelia: 12

"Hey mother I-," her mother stops her "Could you go do some chores or anything?" Her mom says in an angry tone "I wanted to play with my new dolls mother," Aurelia smiles and holds her dolls up when her mom looks at her in disappointment her mom didn't get her those "Where did you get those?" her mother is confused "My friend gave me them." Aurelia says about to cry

Her mother never wnated to do anything with her.

It hurt Aurelia but she had to suck it up,

"Hey Poppy," she says to a wall in her room but in her imagination it's a sweet girl with long brown hair, dark brown eyes that sparkled. Aurelia gores to Poppy "I did what you told me, I asked her to play but she said no once again," Aurelia stares at Poppy "Oh honey you can play with me," Poppy replies "Let's go play with my dolls." She runs to her dollhouse and continues to talk to herself, her friend.

Hours later her mother came to her room and opens her door "Who are you talking to?" She says in a very irritated tone "Mother—" she stops for a moment "I'm only talking to Poppy," she stares at the wall but to her it's Poppy, her mother stares at her like she's crazy "What are you talking about? Are you that lonely?!" She screams at Aurelia like she had did something when she didn't

All she wanted was her mother to notice that she needed someone.

She wanted to go to school but she was homeschooled but rarely even learned.

"You don't deserve any of this you stupid child." Her mother has her finger in her face

When Aurelia's mother gets mad she does things like, she doesn't give her food for days, takes her toys, locks her in a room with nothing else but a pillow. She hates that room

But this time her mother didn't do anything

But scream.

She screamed and threw things around for an hour until she passed out

This was normal to Aurelia and Poppy

—reality—

I woke up, I had forgotten about Poppy

I wish I wasn't my mothers child she has caused me to not want to live anymore and made me this way

My friends have perfect mothers and mine is a piece of shit.

I get up I feel awfully dizzy

I needed to something with my life.