Home Soon (Sequel to What It Seems)

Chapter 23

I tried to not think about the car in front of our house, but that wasn't happening. I couldn't sleep on the plane because I couldn't stop thinking. Colson won't leave my side but he won't say a word to me. It's been that way since I got questioned. I knew he was upset but not talking about thing won't solve anything. No one would say anything actually. It was starting to become a really awkward vacation.

We were all getting ready for the beach. I wasn't really up for it but everyone was going and I didn't want to sit in a hotel room by myself all day. I looked in the mirror once I had my bathing suit on. I had never been too insecure, I mean I had my moments but never anything like I had been feeling lately. After I left I wasn't on the road as much and I had to go to rehab so I wasn't ever moving around like I used to. I was always on the road, running from the boys, in the gym with Kenzie, but that all stopped once I came back to Cleveland and was on my own.

I grabbed my beach bag, slowly making my way down to the lobby where we were supposed to meet up at. I was the last one to get there. I saw Kenzie with the kids and Colson was talking to some girls. Me and Ash were both watching him but she didn't seem to think much of it so I didn't either. I was fine until I saw him look the one up and down and smirk after they walked away. I sighed and sat down, putting my head in my hands.

"Are you okay mommy?" Allie asked.

"I just don't feel too great. I'll be fine though." she smiled and nodded, running back to Kenzie. She gave me the "look" because she knew I was lying.

When we got to the beach me, Ash, and Kenzie took the kids to go swimming and the boys stayed with the stuff and got the drinks out of the cooler. Kenzie kept watching me but I tried ignoring her. When we got out of the water so the kids could get their lunch, she dragged me aside.

"So how are you feeling today?"

"Fine. Kenzie there's nothing to worry about."

"You always say that when there is something to worry about. What is it? You know you can tell me."

"It's not you...it's just I don't want Colson. Not that's too interested in me lately."

"It's those girls he was talking to isn't it? You know you don't have to worry about anyone else when it comes to him."

"That's not the point here Kenzie!" I said a little too loud because everyone looked over at us. I heard footsteps and turned around to see Colson.

"You two okay?"

"I am, you need to talk to her though." she said and left us alone. He grabbed my hand and started walking down the beach with me.

"I know I need to address this Colson, but I'd rather not do it here. I'd rather just wait until we're back at the hotel and we can be by ourselves." he nodded and turned around. He started walking back by himself. Kenzie looked at me with a confused look and I just shook my head.

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Colson's POV

We got back to the hotel and everyone went off to do their own thing. Me, Dub, and Slim were all in the room hanging out. I watched Sky closely whenever she came out of our room. She was acting different and it was bugging me. I feel bad because I haven't been talking to her but I didn't know what to say when I went to say something to her. I told the boys I'd be back and walked down to out room. I stood in the doorway for about 5 minutes. She was sitting in a chair staring out the window.

"Can we talk now?" I said as I sat down on the bed. She jumped and turned around.

"Uh yeah." she walked over and sat down next to me.

"What's going on with you?"

"Well to start off you've been avoiding me. I feel like you're mad at me for what happened. Like it's my fault."

"Shit. I didn't know you felt that way about it. You should have come to me sooner. I feel bad now. I'm not mad at you, I just didn't really know what to say. I would go to say something and my mind went blank. I'm sorry Skylar."

"Don't be. I understand that feeling too well."

"Is that all there is?" she nodded and I stood up, ready to leave the room.

"I-I saw how you looked at her." I turned around, confused.

"Who? What are you talking about?" I sat down again.

"The girl in the lobby this morning. I saw that look, the smirk, on your face. I've been feeling really shitty about myself lately and that didn't help." she had tears running down her face now.

"You've been feeling insecure about yourself lately?" she nodded. I pulled her into a hug.

"I just feel like you don't like me as much as you used to. Like you see other girls and think 'wow I can do so much better.'"

"Don't you ever think like that again. No, I don't like you like I used to; I love you now. You are perfect. You're the only girl I wanna come home to at the end of the day, or a show, or a tour. I promise you are the only girl I want." I sat back and made her look up at me. "Listen, we have three beautiful kids and we're gonna get married and we're gonna have our own fuckin happily ever after with these asshole friends of ours." we both laughed.

"Well, that sounds wonderful."

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Hey, it's been a while. I'm so so sorry I haven't updated in so long. I'm not gonna give you any excuses. Now that it's summer I'm going to try to update a lot more to make up for months of not updating. I hope you all enjoyed the new chapter!