Home Soon (Sequel to What It Seems)

Chapter 18

The last show was tonight. Kenzie and Dub would be here soon, and I still haven't told Colson about everything. Kenzie keeps calling, and everytime we talk she sounds more and mroe disappointed in me. I know I have to tell him, but I don't want to. He thinks I was fine that time I was gone, and that I've been fine. I don't want to drag him down with me, I was already doing that to Kenzie. 

I grabbed my bags and walked into the hotel, getting my key from the front desk. I saw Colson talking to them, and they seemed serious about whatever it was they were talking about. Kenzie saw me and pushed past them to get to me.

"You still haven't told him? I thought you said he'd know by the time we got here."

"I know Kenzie. You don't understand how it feels though. I'm already dragging you down with me and I don't-"

"Skylar I am your best friend, I'm helping you because I want to. You are not in any way 'dragging me down.' And Colson is gonna be right next to you, he won't be mad or disappointed. Sure he might be upset because you took so long to tell him, but either way he needs to know."

"Thank you, I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Well, you'd be very bored, for one." I laughed as we walked to the boys. 

We hung out for the rest of the day. The boys talked about where we could go out to celebrate after, and me and Kenzie watched whatever we could find on tv. I was looking forward to the show, and even after for once, since Kenzie was here. She agreed to let me wait until tomorrw so nothing could possibly ruin tonight.

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"Here's to the last night of another random ass tour, thank you to Ash and Jess for always putting this shit together." Colson said before we took our shots. The show was amazing, it was great to have Kenzie on stage with me, and she definitely missed it. I was enjoying myself for once, and was drinking since Kenzie was here to keep an eye on how much I was drinking. I knew I should be keeping an eye on her, she hasn't been able to drink since before Celeste was born. Ash and Jess left early, since they had been up super early this morning. I was starting to feel relaxed and I ordered myself another drink. I was sure I could stop myself if I felt like I'd had enough. Colson came over and had me do a rager shot, along with Kenzie and Dub.

After a couple hours, we all left and Kenzie wasn't even drunk, which I was honestly shocked. She said she wasn't expecting to walk out on her own, which everyone laughed and agreed. I wish I could joke around with that, but if I drank too much I know I'd be able to walk, but I still wasn't sure of what I'd do if I did get drunk. 

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It was around 4 am and we were still in the hotel, we decided to leave later in the afternoon. I was laying in bed, not able to sleep. I sat up and looked around the room, everyone was passed out. I got out of bed quietly and walked to where the bottles and drinks were kept. I got something to drink and sat down on the floor. I started drinking, and after a while I wasn't worried about stopping. 

I got up after about an hour and fell back down, dropping an empty bottle. I started laughing because I fell, and grabbed the counter for support. I felt something sharp under my foot as I started walking. I hopped on one foot to the living area and fell onto the couch. I had one more drink on my hand; I finished it, and passed out.

Kenzie's POV

I woke up to go the bathroom a while ago, and I've been waking up throughout the night now. I was waking up again, when I heard something glass break and laughing. I figured it was one of the boys trying to find their way back to bed. I ignored for a while it until I realized that laugh I heard wasn't the boys, but that it was Skylar. I sighed and jumped out of bed walking out to the kitchen.

"Fuck! Skylar, where are you?" I stepped on a piece of glass, so I had to limp to the living area. I turned the lamp on and there she was, bottle in her hand and her passed out on the couch. "Sky wake up." I shook her.

"Leave me the fuck alone!" she yelled, which made me jump because I didn't even expect her to wake up. 

"Quiet down, Sky."

"Why should I?" she laughed, loudly, "Everyone wants to know what's wrong with me anyways, guess they should find out now!" she said even louder. I heard people moving around in the room.

"What's going on?" Jess asked, barely awake. She saw Sky and the bottle and sighed, sitting down. "Why Skylar?"

"Why what? Why am I so fucked up?"

"Why would you do this, you don't want Colson seeing you like this, or any of the boys, do you?" she rolled her eyes and stood up, falling right back down. Slim and Colson were standing in the doorway, Colson looked confused and Slim sat down next to Jess after a while. Colson wouldn't move from where he was.

"Why not let them, they wanted so badly to know what's been wrong with me. Well here, this is it. This is why I haven't been drinking. Okay? I don't want to drag you guys into my mess." she was crying now, and I looked up at Colson to see he had tears in his eyes.

"Sky, look at me." Colson said, sitting down next to her. She refused to, so he just kept talking. "I'm not gonna go nowhere just because of this. Who was right by my side when I relapsed?"

"I was.." she looked at him.

"What I'm trying to tell you is, no matter what you have going on in your life, whether you tell me right away or not, or if I have to find out in this way, I'm gonna be here for you. I want to help you, I will try my hardest to do whatever I can. And everyone in this hotel room, want to help too. We all just want to see you get better." she scooted her way to him and he held her as he spoke, and as she cried. I think everyone at least had tears in their eyes at this point. We all left to give them their privacy after she calmed down.