All Our Broken Pieces

Chapter 30

"Oh my god." I stared at my hands, in awe of my own internal power.

"Very good miss Goldhunt, maybe now you've done that, it won't take you as long to figure out the rest."

"I've never seen you so excited professor,  but maybe a well done is in order." 

"I don't appreciate that tone miss Goldhunt, not after everything I have done for you."

His dark figure towered over me and I gulped, knowing some long lecture was about to begin.

"I understand you did your homework on your special abilities but you don't seem to be acknowledging the amount of external danger you are about to face. Many people are going to want to have your help and many of them are going to try and coerce you into doing their dirty work. Make your choises wisely Miss Goldhunt, every action has its concequence and nobody here at Hogwarts wants you to make the wrong one."

I laughed, how could such a clever man be so giving to a school he hates, telling me about making good choices, even with his past? He's a hypocrite and a bullshitter.

"What you mean is, Voldemort wants me on his side and Dumbldore is trying to keep me sweet so I don't join him, I'm not a fucking idiot Snape."

My feet pulled me a step closer to him.

"I'm dangerous, and you all know it, so lecturing me on making good choices was the wrong move, maybe Albus should've thought about that before he killed my brother. So I think I'll make whatever choice I fucking want because neither you, nor Dumbledore have the ability to stop me."

And with that I left his dingy office feeling relieved as a sense of euphoria flooding my veins.

My plan had finally begun to fall into place.

I almost ran to the great hall for dinner, my feeding padding along the concrete slabs. I hadn't felt this good in a long time. I could take on the world.

When I reached the table, the only person sat there was Mattheo, which was a best case scenario for once.

"Hey." I plopped into the seat across from him, filling my pplate with food.

"Erm hey Nor's." he glanced up at me and gulped.

I dug into my food, my plate piled high withh roasted meats and vegetables, and mashed potatoes all drowned in gravy.

"How are you my lo..." he cleared his throat, "how are you since the incident, I heard you were in a pretty bad way."

"I'm good, thank you for helping me back to Enzo and Draco, Mattheo. Truly"

His face lit up as I said his name. "My pleasure princess."

"I need your help with something Mattheo, but you have to promise you won't say no."

"Depends what it is Nor's"

"Well, look I have a plan but I'm going to need you to trust me okay?"

He noddeed, a mischevious twinkle in is eye.

"And nobody else can know from you, under no circumstances must you tell anyone, okay?"

"That's definitely okay sweetheart."

I smiled, and went back to eating, obviously.

A few hours later, when Mattheo and I were alone once more in the common room, I began to explain everything.

I explained my new-found powers and why his father was so interested in me and having me beside him in this war.

"It was Bellatrix, thats who paid a lovely mid-term visit the other week."

He sighed, running his fingers through his chocolate curls.

"She was here to come and get you wasn't she?"

I nodded, tilting my head to the left.

"And I think I'm going to take her up on her offer."

His head snapped up, eyes full of worry. "What?!"

"Look I know it sounds stup-"

"You're damn right it sounds stupid Nora. Are you a fucking idiot?"

My eyes followed him pace around the room, biting at his fingertips.

"Mattheo listen to me-"

"What? You want me to 'hear you out' really? Fucks sake Nora, no. No you're not. I won't let you."

"I'm not asking you for permission Riddle. So sit the fuck down and listen to my plan or you'll just have to watch me do it all myself. I don't need your help. But I want it. So let me explain."

Silence radiated around us as he realised I was fully serious about what I was about to say.

"Look I hate your father too, and I want him gone, but he and I both know I have something he wants and I intend to use it to our advantage. I don't agree with his views nor tactics, but if I can help and take him down then I will. I just think it'll be easier to do so from inside. All I need from you is a way in, I can figure out the rest later."

"How are you so sure he'll trust you."

"Because he knows how much I hate Dumbledore."

"Hm.."  I watched him intently, waiting for his answer, "okay fine, but only if you let me protect you, that's all I want Nora. Please?"

My heart pounded inside of my chest as it rose with every deep breath I took. I looked down at my trembling hands, reminding myself that I was doing this for more that just myself. This was for Mattheo and Draco, Enzo and Blaise. This was for Alex, and the life that was stolen from him on my behalf. This was so much bigger than me.

The large doors at Malfoy Manor slowly gave way into their open foyer. Instinctively I clasped Mattheo's hand  in mine, feeling relieved when he  squeezed it in return.

"Father?" we made our way through the dining hall, looking again for that grand table where they all sat.

"Father, there's someone here to see you."

a/n okay but nora's a badass here idc