~GRIMES~

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The days that followed after moms death Carl was becoming more and more distant from everyone, he seems to have a shorter temper now when ever anyone spoke to him often ending up yelling at the person talking to him and storming off, I couldn't blame him though, we were all taking moms death badly, nobody dared to talk about the topic of mom or t-dog, I would often wake up in my uncomfortable bunk bed and look down at the bunk below me praying mom would be there and that all this was a dream, only to be met with nobody on the bunk, I sighed as tears filled my eyes.
the first time I had held my baby sister was yesterday, I held her in my arms with Beth next to me, she stared into my eyes, I blinked away tears as I saw how much she looked like mom, she still didn't have a name yet, more tears streamed down my face blurring my vision as I quickly handed the baby back to Beth and ran to my cell, I fell down onto what used to be moms bunk, I curled up into a ball as I sobbed on the bed, when I opened my eyes there were wet patches of where I was crying, my eyes were stinging from crying, I quickly walked to the bathroom praying that nobody would be in there, "hey Ellie, you alright?" I hear from behind me as I walk faster ignoring whoever it was, I reached the bathroom as I wiped my nose on my sleeve, I pushed open th door, one single person stood in the bathroom, staring at me with worry on her face, it was Eloise, I stared back at her with red eyes, "Ellie,you ok?" She asked softly as she started walking closer to me, I seid nothing as I hugged onto Eloise, "it's alright" she repeatedly whispers as she hugs me.

I walk back to the cells in a slightly better mood, I notice Carl is outside sitting on one of the stairs, I open the door and slowly walk out, he doesn't even bother to look up to see who it is, "hey" I say quietly , he doesn't reply as I start speaking again "Beth has our sister if you want to see he-" he looks up with an annoyed expression "no" he snaps "I don't, why can't everyone just leave me alone" he yells "I was seeing if you were alright" I say softer than before, I could feel the tears in my waterline "I'm alright,ok just go away" he says through gritted teeth "but your not fine" I say back, he stands up to face me "who are you to tell me if I'm fine or not?" He shouts "your so annoying just leave me alone for once" he yells in my face, his anger slowly disappears as he realised what he just seid, my face turned red as tears started streaming down my face, I run inside, my legs felt like jello, "wait!" He yells behind me as I keep running.

After crying for what felt like forever, my dad was missing in the tombs somewhere, my mom is dead and my brother was distancing himself from everyone, I slowly walked out to the cafeteria with my eyes still read holding onto the arm of my bunny, I took a seat next to Beth and Eloise, "you alright, your eyes are awfully red" Beth asks me in a soft voice, "yeah" I say quietly staring at my sister on Beth's lap waving her arms around and gargling, most of us ate dinner in silence , some having small convocations, as I finished my dinner i started getting up from my seat, I see Carl walking over to us, "I'll see yous later night" I say to Beth and Eloise quietly as I start walking away quickly, I climb up to my bunk bed, I curl up with my bunny while looking at the wall, I hear Carl walk in "look, I'm sorry Ellie" he seid quietly after getting no reply he speaks again "I'm just sad about mom, I don't really know how to explain it" he says even quieter than before, I continue staring at the wall not replying to him, I close my eyes as tears start pouring out my eyes, I hear Carl sigh as he walks out of the cell, I get down from my bunk as I slowly walk out the cell door "w-wait" I say as my voice cracks, he turns around and looks at me, I walk up to him and wrap my arms around him "I'm sorry" I say quietly as I sob, "it's alright" he reply's quietly as he wraps his arms around me, "did you mean what you seid" I mutter quietly "what?" He ask s, I look at him with tears "what you seid out on the stairs" I say quietly while sniffling "no, I was just mad, I'm sorry" he says.

In the morning I walked down to where mom,t-dog and carols graves were, I sat down at the graves, 'at least carol is with Sophia now' I thought to myself as I stared at her grave, I thought of Sophia, I thought of how I never got to say goodbye to her or carol,t-dog,Shane,Andrea,Jim or amy, I got up from my spot on the ground as I saw three beautiful flowers blooming not far from where I was, I walked over and plucked all three of them, I walked back over to the graves, I placed one on moms grave, carols grave and t-dogs grave, I stepped back to I could see all three graves.