Yours, now and forever.

Chapter 18

Bella's POV

Old tears dried on my cheeks as I forced my eyes open. Peter's shirt was wet with my anger and sadness. The frustrating thing was, I still had no idea why I was so unbelievably angry. Let's step back and think for a minute. What reasons did I actually have.

Good things, right, let's think. I have a brother, one that I've been close to and bonded strongly with since I got here, I'm in a good place with Peter, everything here is like a dream with no one to wake you up, I still have Oliver by my side, my best friend who I can always rely on. Right, now what do I have to be upset about. Benjie is still being bitter and won't tell me why, what if Noah finds out I'm his sister, the one he left his home because of, the reason he got taken away from his mother and father, Felix still hasn't warmed up to me, I mean I've been here almost a year, you'd think he would at least tolerate me, and what if Peter doesn't really care about me, what if it's simply just because I'm the only girl here, why can't I fix what is wrong with Benjie, and why can't I hear Peter's music anymore, why does Benjie hate me, what did I do! I gasped suddenly as a hand placed itself on my shoulder. In my crazy train of thought I had sat up in my bed, hugging my knees and hiding my face away from the world.

"Everything ok" Peter's soothing voice said to me. I nodded, leaning my head back onto his arm. He shuffled closer, sliding his arms all the way around me, enclosing my tucked up knees and hunched up body in his strong arms. "You're telling the truth?" I nodded once more, trying to get him to quite the questioning while I was still holing it together. "Well I know you aren't, however I'm not looking to argue with you my love." He began, standing up and holding out his hands for me to take. I took them, feeling him pull me to my feet, before forcing me into a hug, his hand resting on the back of my head, as if he were protecting me from the world while I was in his arms. "I know you would tell me if you could." His worlds muffled into my hair, "but if you can't I won't ask anymore, I'll do whatever you need, you just say the word my love." What did I do to deserve him.

Pan's pov

The sweet smell of her hair sent shivers down my spine, I desperately wanted to take away all of her problems, it killed me that I couldn't. What was the use of my magic if I couldn't help her. She pulled away from me, her eyes glistening with new tears, I brushed the hair away from her face, holing her soft cheek in my hand and kissed her softly. "I'm gonna go wash in the waterfalls." She whispered, her voice raspy and sore. I nodded and watched as she left the tent. I waited for a few seconds, simply thinking. I lost my trail of thought quickly, looking down and beginning to busy myself with folding up Bella's hoodie and making the bed look a little neater before exiting the tent myself.

Oh for goodness sake. "This is beginning to get rather tedious Felix." I said warningly, purposefully preoccupying myself by tightening my cuffs.

"You already know why I'm here Pan." He said calmly.

"Yes Felix. And you already know what I'm going to say. So let's cut all the procrastinating." I teased, smirking at him, being as belittling as I could.

"I hate her Pan, she's nothing but trouble. A spitting image of Wendy." My teasing turned immediately to anger, how very dare he!

"Bella is nothing like her!" I snapped at him, thrusting my face towards him and letting my harsh words spit through my teeth.

"You're falling hard again Pan!" He began to raise his voice at me. "Do you really think she'll stay? Don't you see how similar this is!" The anger and frustration boiled inside of me, my lungs and throat filling up with fiery lumps of pure wrath. I could have killed him in that very moment. I swallowed it down, forcing the firey pit to be stomped out, and the flames to die and turn only into burning embers waiting to be lit once more.