Yours, now and forever.

Chapter 21

Bark scratched my hand as I climbed to the top branches of the trees. Passing the flowers that were filled with pixie dust. Why can't I just take a little and use it to get to the top? No. It's the rules, no taking pixie dust. I reached a branch that was just a little way above the ground. My legs could just only be seen if someone was looking very carefully, and if I jumped or fell I'd be able to land easily with no harm done. I was surrounded by thick branches, one of which I had leaned back on to relax and start reading. It was actually a really nice little cubby hole to have a moment to myself. And that is the one thing I really really needed right now. A moment to process everything that had happened the past few days.

I opened the book and started to read.....

"I don't understand it, and I don't like what I don't understand."

As I finished the third to last chapter a slow hum of mumbling sounded from a little away from the tree. Coming closer till I could hear the anger within the voices. I recognised them automatically. Felix and Peter.....

I shuffled in my position, so I could look down on the two boys, but still be unseen. Peter was walking towards the tree, probably about to climb it to find some peace and quiet; Felix followed after him, quick on his heels and irritating Peter more and more by the second.

"Felix I'm warning you to drop this right now." Peter growled. What the hell is he so angry about.

"But you know I'm right!" Felix was yelling at him. Peter jolted at the trunk of the tree, turning round sharply as Felix stopped just in front of him.

"I order you. Stop this stupid mission of yours and leave me alone!" Peter was now shooting back.

"Just admit it! She's making you weak! You love her!" Oh my god. They're seriously arguing over me!?

"Shut up Felix!" They were snapping back and forth at each other like crazy creatures, in an attempt to win this argument.

"Pan, one of these days you have to admit it, you are trapped in the same old box. The Wendy trap." Peter's face was creasing up and becoming more red and heated by the second. Everything inside him was punching against his head to burst but he was trying not to, I could tell it. "Pan. You are in love with Bella. It is painfully obvious!" Felix was yelling at him.

"SHUT UP!" Peter was screaming. Lumps crawled in my throat. I couldn't tell whether they were good lumps or bad ones but something in my mind was telling me not to get my hopes up at what I had just heard. "SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!" His hands met his head and pulled at his hair.

"NO! You know you are! You have to get rid of her! You are so madly in love and it's making you weak! Look at what you're doing for her!" Peter's breathing was now becoming heavier and heavier. As if he was in pain. Fighting the urge to hurt Felix or even kill him. "You treat her like a queen compared to us! You protect her! You would do anything to keep her away from danger!"

"NO I DONT!"

"Yes you do! Because you love her!" Something in Peter's mind was snapped, a chord was cut and his testing patience ran out.

"NO I DO NOT! I DO NOT LOVE HER! I NEVER HAVE, I NEVER WILL! I AM PETER PAN. I DO NOT LOVE ANYTHING! SHE MEANS NOTHING TO ME! NOTHING!!!" Felix stepped back in shock to his response. My heart crushed in my chest. I felt the blood crawl up my throat. I felt sick. Like I wanted to throw up, but I couldn't. My blood was boiling. With anger, but also sadness. It's all been a lie. Everything. Felix wasn't lying was he. I'm just a game. An entertaining hobby. Their continuing mumbles were blurred as the flashbacks of thoughts rushed through my mind. Then one singular thought.

Let's see how he feels when he sees me.

I secured my book into my belt so it was out of my hands. Then swung my legs over so I would land just behind Pan. Then I pushed myself off of the branch, jumping down and landing hard on the floor.

Time froze for a second, Pan's head swung round in slow motion and the malicious grin I had seen so many times returned  to Felix's face. Pan's eyes widened and the red on his face swapped to a pale, ghostly white. My throat was tight, I wanted to scream at him, tell him how much I hated him, but only a few words could escape, broken apart and shaky. "At least the game is over now."

Reality snapped back, I was walking away fast as he called after me. "Bella, wait no!" I carried on walking. "Bella please!" He appeared in front of me in the blink of an eye. Pleading me to stop. "Bella please, let me explain." I scowled at him, staying silent. "Please, this can all be explained just give me a chance."

"Stay away from me Pan." I mumbled, pushing him firmly out of my way and walking off. He didn't follow this time. A part of me wanted him to, but it was over shadowed by the anger and irritation of not wanting to see him. Ever again. I wanted him to be gone forever. I wanted to go home. I wanted to take my brother. And get away from that horrible boy.

For the first time, I regretted it. Everything. I regretted loving Pan. I regretted thinking he loved me, or even could love me. I hated myself for what I had let myself fall into. I regretted him ever saving me from that lagoon. I regretted everything to do with that monster.