Judy Alvarez/V oneshots

Drugged ⚠️

Trigger warning: drug use, slight gore, hallucinations, self-hate and self harm. Sorry no Johnny in this one.

I'm back y'all (after a month). Hope everyone had a good Christmas and a good start to the new year. Starting this year off right with a sad one. ENJOYYYY!

*V POV*
I stepped into the hallway still wondering why the hell I got dragged to Kerry's party. The music blared in my ears, the smell of marijuana and sex lingering in the air. I felt a hand on my hand and looked over to see Judy.
"Hey babe! I didn't know you were Gonna be here." Judy said.
"Um yeah kerry invited me. What are you doing here? How do you knew Kerry?" I asked.
"I don't personally know him, some of the mox do and I was invited to come along so I figured why not. Now that you're here this party is gonna be a thousand times better! Let's go get a drink, Val." Judy dragged me over to the alcohol table. She handed me a drink and grabbed one for herself. After 30 minutes of us drinking and chatting, judy said she was gonna go check on her friends. Leaving me alone. I stare into the sea of unfamiliar faces.
"Hey V!" I look over to see who called my name. It was Kerry.
"Hey man. Haven't seen you since I got here." I said as Kerry put his arm around my shoulder.
"Here I gotcha a drink. It's my favorite." He hands me a drink and it smells weird but maybe it's just my senses acting up from the alcohol. I take a sip and it tastes good. I chug it. Kerry looks at me and smiles. He chuckles.
"Damn dude that was actually good. I didn't taste the alcohol. What was in it?" I ask.
"That was an old Cuban with a special ingredient." He smiled.
"What's the special ingredient?"
"Well, choom, you needed to lighten up because you are so tense all the damn time so, it's something you are gonna feel in an hour. I didn't know how high your tolerance was so I put four times the regular dose. Enjoy the LSD trip." I stared at kerry, shocked.
"I'm sorry, you FUCKING DRUGGED ME?!" I shouted.
"Yeah you'll be fine though." He shrugged his shoulders.
"Fine!? I've never done LSD before! Are you out of your fucking mind?" I yelled.
"Oh shit are you serious? Okay well you are going to be fine. Just don't freak out and here." He grabbed my arm and wrote the time down. (7:30pm)
"You're gonna need to know how long this is when your little trip is over." He walked away from me after that leaving me stunned.
Ok.
Ok.
Don't freak.
Just gotta find Judy, she can help.
Yeah. She will help me through this. I'm going to be okay. Just gotta find her before I trip and I'll be okay.
I maneuvered around the sea of people before my eyes landed on Judy. I ran over to her.
"Um Judy sorry to bug ya but I need your help." She turned to me.
"What's up?"
"Um I'm not feeling so good. Wanna come back to my place with me?" I lied.
"We both just got here, Val. But if you're really not feeling that good we can go to mine, it's closer." I nodded as she said that.
"Yeah yeah yeah. That works. Um I'm gonna go wait by your van." Before Judy could say Anything I walked out by all of the cars and found her van. I rocked back and forth on my feet waiting for her. After five minutes she finally came out.
We both got into her van and Judy turns towards me and says,
"What's wrong, Valerie? You acting off. Not how you normally act when you are sick."
I sucked in a deep breath.
"Kerry drugged me. Slipped LSD into my drink. He says it's four times the normal fucking dose. I should be feeling it in an hour."
"Oh fuck, V. I'm gonna kick his ass. Ok let's get you home and comfortable, because you are not gonna have a good time." Judy started driving to her place. I got my phone out and texted Kerry.

V: next time I see you I'm beating the shit outta you.
Kerry: no you won't. Have a good trip.

I rubbed my eyes, feeling anxious.
"Um jud. I've never taken LSD before. How bad is this gonna be?"
Judy sighed and said, "depends on what you see and how you handle it. We will be to my place soon. I will get you comfy and be by your side the whole time." She grabbed my hand.
"Thanks, babe." I squeezed her hand.
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We finally made it to Judy's place and we rushed inside.
She grabbed blankets and sat me down on the couch. She set the blankets down next to me and crouched down in-front of me.
"So a little tip. Everything you are seeing besides me is not real. It's all a hallucination. If things get too bad you tell me, LSD tends to bring some insane hallucinations. You are gonna lose track of time so If you start to panic let me know. I'm not going to be leaving your side. I love you, Val."
"I love you too, judy."she sat down next to me and turned on the TV, trying to distract me. I look at my phone and see that it has been an hour already, this shit should be kicking in soon according to Kerry. I snuggled into Judy, my head starting to feel light. She wrapped her arms around me. She ran her fingers through my hair, I closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling.
"I'm right here, V." She whispered her voice sounding distorted and far away. I opened my eyes to see her right next to me. Her attention on the tv, her fingers till running through my hair. I shifted a little bit and Judy looked down at me. I smiled at her as Concern flooded through her eyes as I stared at her. Her face started to deform into something I've only seen in nightmares, my smile disappeared. I looked away.
Totally not real, V. You're ok. Just pretend like everything is fine. Like Judy didn't just shift into a fucking nightmare monster.
"V? You okay?" I felt a hand cup my cheek. I focused my attention back to Judy, she looked fine. No deformities.
"Um yeah I'm good. Just, it kicked in, I guess." I said. I ran a had through my hair, even my fucking hair felt weird.
"Judy. I need to use the bathroom. I need to piss." Judy nodded at me as I got up. She watched me walk into the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it. I stared at myself in the mirror. My eyes pure black instead of their normal blue. My breathing picked up. I felt myself panicking.
You're ok, you're ok.
My reflection smiled back at me and started to talk.
"Wow. Look at you. All freaked out and for what reason? You finally come face to face with your sins."

"What? What do you mean?"

"Soon you will come to realize that you cause death. What did Judy say she sensed in you, death? You killed Jackie, Evelyn, Johnny and yourself. Everyone who comes into contact with you, dies. Soon enough you will kill Judy."

"No I won't. I will protect her with my life. I didn't kill them. Evelyns death wasn't my fault. Jackie's death was an accident, a job gone wrong. Johnny had to go, this was my body. If I could fix their deaths I would but I can't."

"You're pathetic. Might as well stop killing now before you destroy everyone you love. Here take it and kill yourself." My reflection held out a razor to me.
"No not happening. I can't do that to Judy."
"Hm. You will at some point. We've tried it in the past. Never worked. But now we can make it happen for real this time."
"No now stop. I'm not doing that. I might be a shitty person and an even shittier output but I'm not going to kill myself. That never worked in the past, I'm not trying it again." I looked down at the faded scars on my arms from my failed attempts. I turned away from my reflection. As I turned around I was face to face with Jackie.
"Jackie? W-what?" I gasped.
"Why did you let me die? Chica, we were supposed to be legends. But you let me get killed. That damn biochip. You are the one who shoulda died not me." He stared me down.
"I-I I tried to save you. I T-tried. You told me to let you go. To t-tell misty and y-your family you loved them. I tried everything I could to save you. You were my best friend." I said as tears rolled down my face.
"Well you didn't try hard enough. You have left a trail of death, v. Maybe you should stop the path of destruction now to avoid more death." I struggled to breath. I turned away. I sat up against the side of the tub. I was sobbing now still struggling to breath.
"VALERIE! Are you okay?!" I heard knocking from the door. I hurried to the door and unlocked it and came face to face with Judy. I hugged her tight.
She held me tight.
"Babe. You're okay! You were in there for an hour. I thought you had hurt yourself or something."
"W-what? I wasn't in there for an hour?" I said. I looked up at her to see a glimpse of Evelyn and Jackie behind her all laughing at me. I gasped my eyes going wide. I got out of Judy's hold and sat at the opposite end of her. I put my knees up to my chest and cried.
"Valerie babe tell me what you see? It's not real. You're here with me." Judy attempted to reach out to me.
"STOP! DONT TOUCH ME!" I yelled. Judy retracted her hand. Judy sighed and got comfortable on the floor. I could still hear their laughing. I peeked my eyes up and saw that they were gone. I saw Judy watching me, she had tears rolling down her face.
"I'm sorry, Judy...." I whispered as I put my head back on my knees. I rubbed my eyes. I felt exhausted. I looked down at my hands to see blood on them. I gasped as everything went black for a second. When I came to I was laying in Judy's bed.
'What the hell?' I sat up. I noticed Judy sitting in the chair beside the bed. She saw me moving and turned her attention toward me.
"Oh V. How do you feel, baby?" She came and sat next to me.
"Um what happened? After the bathroom? We were sitting on the floor and that's all I remember." I rubbed my eyes.
"Well you started saying how sorry you were that you let them die. That you should be dead not them. I could tell you were out of it, you were saying how they won't go away. And you started to talking about evelyn and Jackie. I assumed after you said that, that's who you meant the whole time. Then you starting talking about Johnny and how he shoulda taken your body. And at one point you got up and tried to slice your wrists open. It took everything I had to stop you, even then you still managed to do some damage. After some time I managed to calm you down and you just cried. I tried to hold you and get you to relax but you didn't. About an hour ago is when you passed out and slept." I looked down at my wrist to see it bandaged.
"Oh." Was all I could manage to say as I looked up at judy. She was crying.
I looked at my arm again to see the smeared time still there.
"Hey what time is it?"
"It's about 3:45am." I tripped for 8 fucking hours.
"8 fucking hours. I'm so sorry Judy. I'm sorry you had to deal with my freak out." I hugged Judy.
She hugged me back, "it's okay babe. I'm just glad you didn't hurt yourself worse than what it is. Now let's get you to take a shower and new clothes. We gotta clean the wound again. You will feel better."
I agreed and got up. She led me to the bathroom and took the bandage off and started to clean it.
"I'll put a new bandage over it after you shower." I just nodded at her as she left the bathroom so I could shower. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw the black eyes staring back at me again. I gasped.
"Silly girl. I won't ever leave. I'm not a hallucination I'm a part of you."