Diary Entry <3

A Unexpected turn of events

Felicia pov

Diary entry 10/10/21

It is the 13th of august and it's the last day before school starts. I am looking forward to seeing my classmates but mostly Fatima, I've never told anyone but I really like her and I hate myself for it. She thinks I hate her but I really don't. I don't know how to get across my feelings towards her however I want to hate her but it's impossible. I don't especially want to hurt Fatima but it is the only way I can get rid of my feelings for her...

It's looking kind of cloudy today and I'm feeling like I want to go to the park and just get some fresh air. I go downstairs and close my diary as I throw it against my unmade bed. I walk down the stairs and put my yellow coat on. It's 3 o'clock in the morning and it feels eerie outside. I breathe the air and feel the wetness of the clouds. I go to one of the benches at the park from my apartment and sit down looking at the sunrise. I hear footsteps approaching and I start to walk away without looking at the person walking. I stared at my phone and accidentally walked into....Fatima she looked in my eyes and stutterd.

"S-sorry."

"Watch where you're going idiot!" I said in an intimidating voice as I completely forgot she was living in one of the apartments next to me. We were practically neighbors and I had avoided talking to her the whole summer.

I walked away in anger letting my shoes splash water over her intentionally and that's...where the bullying started.

CHAPTER 1

Finally... The 14th, it's the first day of school and I'm wondering what I should wear. I go to my closet and put something on as I go downstairs to eat breakfast

I quickly whip up some bacon and eggs since my parents have already left for work 'seems they didn't bother to make me anything' I thought.

I walk outside, closing the door behind me. I walk towards the bus stop and enter the big red vehicle.

When I finally get off the bus and enter the ugly yellow school building, I see my friends; Ebba, Ronja, Mimmi and Gunvor at my locker. I quickly walk over to them.

"Hey Idiots!" I said playfully.

Ebba didn't bother looking up and responded with an emotionless "Hey." The rest of the group didn't even respond, typical, I thought. Gunvor laughed at me.

Suddenly someone bumped into me. I quickly turned around ready to punch someone's face in but to my horror, really? I sighed

"S-sorry" I heard a small squeaky voice behind me, it was Fatima.

"Watch where you're going freak!" I yelled and did not hesitate to shove her to the ground. Fatima quickly fell down and let out a painful scream, I must've pushed her harder than I thought.

Mimmi started clapping, and said "That's what you deserve bitch!" I could feel a lump start to form in my throat as I watched Fatima lay there in pain, I could feel all my happiness disappear and fade away like the tears on Fatima's face.

I ignored my gut and started to kick Fatima, of course Ebba, Ronja, Mimmi and Gunvor joined in without hesitating, they were my mindless followers, with the exception of Gunvor, I actually considered them my friends.

I could see tears start to form in Fatima's eyes, and then the bell rang and ended our playing session.

I quickly hurried to the classroom, not wanting to be late. I sat down in my usual spot next to Gunvor.

"That was fun right..?" Gunvor said, they had a bit of doubt in their eyes but I chose to ignore it.

"Hell yeah! I love seeing Fatima get what she deserves" I replied, deep down I knew it wasn't right, but I was sure If I kept pretending I hated her it would become reality.