I Can't Even Concentrate

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Demi's POV

"You ready to get home?" Odell asks me after we had gotten Carter changed into his going home outfit and I smile and nod. It's the next day and he passed all his newborn testing with flying colors this morning so the doctor is letting us all go home.

"Yes. I just want to be in my own bed." I answer as I sit down on the bed since standing for too long gets a little tiring.

"Are you up for visitors later?" He asks me and I shrug.

"I know everyone wants to meet him." I reply as Odell picks Carter up and cradles him in his arms and I smile big.

"If you're not up for it then we can tell them to wait a few days. I know you're tired and you're still recovering." He says and I sigh.

"Let's just see how I feel when we get home." I tell him and he nods.

"Okay. Don't lie to me though. Our families can wait and they will understand." He says sitting down next to me and I smile as I rest my head on his shoulder.

"We really need to figure out his middle name. We have to fill out the birth certificate before we leave." I say quietly after a couple minutes of contently watching Carter.

"Everything I've said, you haven't liked." He replies and I sigh.

"It's not that I don't like them, they just don't flow right." I tell him because I have liked some of the names a lot, but it just didn't fit I guess. "Like, I really love Reign, but I feel like that doesn't sound right. I don't know." I continue because he did mention that name and I fell in love with it but it didn't sound right to me when I would say his full name.

"Then we can hyphenate that with something else to make it flow better." He suggests and I chuckle.

"We're making this so difficult. Okay, let's hyphenate then. What other names do you like?" I say looking up at him as he starts listing off names again. Some were the same as before and others were new ones that either came to his head or what he found on the internet.

"What about Silas?" He asks after about thirty minutes and I was now nursing Carter. He luckily hasn't had any issues after we figured out his positioning.

"That's cute. Carter Silas-Reign Beckham." I reply smiling. "Oooh what about Elias?" I then suggest when that name pops into my head and Odell smiles big.

"That's dope. I like that one." He responds and I nod agreeing with him.

"Elias then?" I ask and he nods.

"You like it?" He asks back and I nod with a large smile. "What about you bud?" He then asks diverting his attention to Carter and I chuckle. When the nurse came in a little bit later to ask if we were ready for the birth certificate, we both agreed and filled that all out before signing discharge papers after she told us that his official birth certificate will come in the mail. After that, we were ready to leave and once we got him into his car seat and I was in a wheel chair so we could leave, I got nervous. We no longer were going to have someone right there in case anything went wrong and that terrified me to be honest. I didn't let myself panic too much though because I knew this was a feeling every new parent had. Once we were all in the car, Odell drove off while I sat in the back seat with Carter. Literally no one knew that I was at the hospital and as far as I knew, there was no headlines that came out either about it so I was glad we had this moment completely to ourselves. I really wanted to wait until we were in the comfort of our own home before we made an announcement. When we finally pulled through the gates of our home, I was relieved because I just wanted to go up to our room and sleep. Now that I was home, I was not up for visitors at all and I hope Odell was right in everyone understanding. I'm sure they will, but I know they're all going to be a little bit disappointed.