I Can't Even Concentrate

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Demi's POV

After Odell and I talked, we've been okay. I won't say that we're back to normal cause we aren't. We actually haven't even had that conversation yet, but Odell is definitely trying his hardest to win me back. I know that because this morning I woke up to red roses being delivered to my room. It was cute and a sweet gesture but I'm just a little confused I guess. I'm relieved that he didn't sleep with those women, but what he said afterwards is still at the back of my mind. He has a point when he said that the only reason that I gave him a chance was because of Carter, but he's wrong in the fact that that's the only reason we're together. It still hurts I guess because he acted like I didn't give him the attention he deserved and I thought I was doing that. I thought I was being the perfect fiancé and mother, but he made me second guess everything.

"Mama. Mama. Mama." Carter mumbles as I get everything ready in his diaper bag cause I had an off day today and we were all going out to explore. We were in Toronto so it's a big city and it's always fun to tour around large cities. I heard a soft knock on my door so I shout out to come in and Odell walked in. I gave him a thankful smile as he grabbed Carter off of me since he was being a little moody today and didn't want to be set down.

"You look good." He says and I blush lightly as I walk around to the kitchen to grab some snacks.

"Thank you. So do you." I respond as I start eating some of his goldfish.

"No mama!" He shouts and I looked up quickly as Odell laughed. He just learned how to say no a couple days ago and it's clearly his favorite word.

"Yeah. Tell mama to stop eating your snacks." Odell encourages and I roll my eyes playfully.

"You gotta share baby. Mommy was just hungry." I say as I walk around the counter and over to them as I bend in and kiss his cheek. We soon headed out and met a couple of my dancers and my backup singers downstairs. We were all going on a small boat ride through a river in the city and then we're just going to walk around after.

"What are we going to do for his birthday?" Odell asks me on the boat after he had taken a picture of Carter and I.

"I don't know. His birthday is in just a couple days and I haven't really planned anything. We will be in Philadelphia for a few days when his birthday happens, so we can just plan a little party. He won't remember it so it doesn't have to be big. We can fly our families out." I answer as I run my fingers through Carters curls.

"Okay. I can see if there's anything to rent out near the hotel." He replies and I nod. "You wanna go out tonight? Just us?" He then asks me and I look over at him with raised brows.

"I can't really say no because knowing you, you already have something planned." I answer and he chuckles softly as he scratches the back of his neck.

"I mean, yeah, but if you don't want to then I can just cancel. It's no big deal." He replies shrugging and I bite my lip.

"No, we can go." I reply giving him a small smile. It will be nice to go out with just Odell because we haven't don't that in a long time. Maybe it will bring up the conversation of what our relationship is now. Jordan ended up watching Carter for us that night so Odell and I could go out. I was a little nervous just because I don't know how to act around him. I don't know how he will act around me. I'm just confused about everything.

"You look beautiful." Odell breathes out when I open the door of my hotel room and I blush deeply.

"Thank you. Carter is just about to go to sleep for the night if you want to say goodnight." I say opening the door wider and he nods as he walks in and goes to the back bedroom. I follow him and see Carter half asleep drinking his bottle while he plays with his hair and I smile as Odell bent down to kiss him and Carter mumbled out dada.