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Ji Eun: hOwW~ dO yA cOnfeSsu tO sOmeOne?

She asked, making me halt my steps.

Confess?

She has never asked me this question before...

It's only after Hyunjin came...

Don't tell me.

No.

No.

Feeling my heart clench at her question, for which she wouldn't have even given a clue or let her tongue slip even by accident in this topic, I sat down on the bed as she looked at me with a curious yet tired face.

Ji Eun: yAhy! sPe-

Jungkook: You should sleep now.

I cut her off, my voice shaking at a possibility. Gulping the lump formed inside my mouth before looking into her eyes with eyes with nothing but despondency.

Ji Eun: wAe?

She asked, sliding under the sheets, her eyes only peeking out as she spoke again, not hearing any words coming out from my mouth, which couldn't think of anything at the moment or let pass my voice through it.

Ji Eun: yOu knOw? hE'ss sWeEt AsF,

I don't know if he really is sweet by heart, but I don't trust that new guy.

Ji Eun: lOves me,

But his eyes really do hold actual love, but no matter what, I can't let her get cheated on. If he does, I won't leave him.

Ji Eun: mAkeS~ shOreu i am DoIn gUuD.

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Haven't you noticed me making sure you were doing okay?

Ji Eun: caReS aBoUt mE AnD iS woRriEd wHen i aM to-

Jungkook: Ji Eun. Sleep now. Alright? I will come... soon.

Ji Eun: whOre?

Jungkook: Restroom.

I said, dashing out of her view and into the restroom. I locked it just so she doesn't come in if she got worried or something.

Sitting down on the closed toilet seat, I face palmed myself, convincing myself to not cry also not to go, kiss her and tell, prove her that she is my fricking everything and I can't and won't live without her in my life.

The way she describes and has noticed the 'care' given by the new guy in school, not even a week in, but not mine, who has shown or yes, I hid from her for years. Hid my worried face just so she wouldn't cry even more cause I know, I know. No one else does. I know she blames herself. And I know she would blame herself when she sees me worrying about her after she sees me breaking down. But still? Not even a bit? Didn't you notice just one little piece in my fake eyes which portrayed that I was strong and that you breaking down infront of me didn't affect me at all?

Can't you see?

Couldn't you?

All these years?

After I had fell in love with you?

Your my fvcking first love and I was happy that I could actually trust my first love.