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No Hope

Jungkook's POV

Feeling under the weather of the obvious incident that rent my heart, I tediously took out various books out of my locker, going through them and getting my act together, well atleast do my damnedest to be so.

Closing the door and leaning on it, I was aware of Ji Eun walking towards me with her bold steps, which are not really bold but just acting so for which she was nervous and I could tell that with her fingers fiddling nervously, as she stood facing me with a good distance between us.

Jungkook: Woah! Look. One day I didn't come to you in the morning, and you are already worried!

I phrased it teasingly, even with the crippling feeling of my ticking heart, rending at every word.

Ji Eun: See. I am just here to thank and ask sorry for whatever happened yesterday. That's it. Get lost.

She spoke, as her timid face changed into her normal one.

Jungkook: Your the one who should. Not me.

I said, while she frowned perplexed.

Jungkook: You were the one who came here. So, I ain't the one who should be getting lost. It's you, princess.

I spoke, trying the best of my skills and discovering them on the way too, as she seemed quite taken aback at this reply of mine, which seemed to have poured over her like cold water from a shower.

Ji Eun's POV

Ji Eun: Whatever.

I spoke, my tone quite off the standard at his words. I couldn't move an inch. I knew something was up and know he won't say it to me. Having successfully created an awkward vacancy, he pulled out his phone from the pocket and started scrolling miles through it, making me question if I was an hallucination or someone who he could just ignore and then tease whenever he wants to like a puppet. Whatever it is, it's bothering me to the end of life; his behaviour at odds, and the problem which he doesn't seem to have spoken about with anyone.

Pondering and getting carried away to various contradictory places and wonders, I just stood there, accepting life. While having submerged in my own thoughts which my mind kept drifting off to, rewinds and forwards, misplaced sequences of yesterday's events, dialogues and acts flashed like an edit inside my busy head.

How do ya confess to someone?

Wait.

Did I really ask him that?

Did I tell him that then?

Is that why he is behaving poles apart?

Don't tell me it's cause of that.

A live wire was pressed against my skin making my spine shiver from my sacrum to my sloped shoulders, which promptly rised itself up at the unforeseen shiver.

Fear rushed through my body, whole self gloom-ridden trepidation, my pessimistic brain settling and depending on the fact that I actually said so and that's the reason he is doing so, I mean why wouldn't he? He must have only seen me as a friend and when I came up just like that, he would have felt bad being the good natured guy he is. So he is distancing himself from me, making sure my hopes don't go high over the moon. Understandable.

Ji Eun.

You're messed up.

You really can't accomplish anything.

They were right.

I really am just a burden for all, after all.

Ji Eun: Aish!