Forever And A Day

1. All Day; Every Night

Brooklyn in the mm☝🏾

Dynasty P.O.V

The hectic alarm rung from my phone, shaking me out of my peaceful sleep.

I check the time, hoping it was the 30 minutes before alarm.

6:00 a.m
"Time To Get Up🥳"

I groaned and rolled over, running my hand across the cold blank space that used to be his side of the bed.

This time I didn't cry. Maybe, just maybe; I was finally learning to be ok with it.

"Thank you God, for waking me up today," I utter as I crawled out of bed. "I know I'm prolly not gon do it all right today, but thank you for giving me the strength to keep going."

Don't get me wrong, I know I'm not perfect. Prolly not even close. But let's be real for a minute; it's not a secret. The only way I get through everyday without Yungin is God.

August made me see the beauty in myself, he taught me how to live with a real smile on my face, not a painted one. But despite all that, it wasn't until the first day I woke up and he wasn't next to me that I realized, I was ungrateful. I spent so many years pondering on the worst days of my life that I never even acknowledged the good.

So no, I'm not claiming to be a church girl cause I ain't got that far, and I don't know if I'll ever get that far, or how long it might take for me to get there, But for now every chance I get, I tell God thank you. Cause at the least, I owe him that..

***
Yours, mine, ours
I could do this for hours
Sit and talk to you for hours
I wanna give you your flowers

And some champagne showers
Order shrimp and lobster towers
But it's me that gets devoured

When you do what you do
I'm empowered
You give me a super power
Together the world could be ours

You sit me up on the counter
Instantly it's thundershowers
Storming for a couple hours
When we finish take a shower

I could do this for hours
And hours
And hours..

The sound of Muni Long's Hrs and Hrs glided through the Bluetooth shower speakers as I prepared to start my morning routine.

I got a glimpse of the calendar as I brushed my teeth. I ran my finger tips across today's date, as tears ran down my face.

1 Year, 2 Months, and 3 Days : I counted.

I took a deep breath, trynna pull myself together before hopping in the shower.

***
A Couple Hours Later

"Bye mommy! See you laterr!" Brooklyn yelled as she charged up to her teacher at the school door.

"Bye baby! I love you! Have a great day!" I yell back. "

"Love you too!" She yells back, before blowing me a kiss, and waving goodbye.

I watched her stroll into the building before I pulled off.

***
I pulled up to the salon and double checked my appearance in the sun visor mirror before making my way inside.