Zara's Beginings

Decisions

I'm not really sure If this chapter is good sorry

Just a short continuation 

"Do you know what you want to do?" I ask, coming back from my hazed fear. I didn't know how to approach this

"I think I want to keep it, I know how hard it was for my parents to have me and It wouldn't feel right," She tells me, I remember her mentioning her mother had several miscarriages before Kayla was born so I understood "I know you have a life planned and this probably doesn't fit that but I hope you agree" She adds giving me a small glare

"It doesn't your right," I say honestly hoping she lets me finish "But I know how important family is and I want to be there for you and this child," I told her honestly

"Thank you," Kayla smiled. I could tell she was nervous and I wish I knew what to do.

"But I can't tell my parents at least not yet let me figure that out," I said I knew when I told them they would be angry and wanted me to marry her and I couldn't do that to her or to me, wed both live miserably

"I understand" She nodded knowing I wasn't even out to my family yet

I had no idea what I was going to do but I knew I would have to find a job to help support her. I didn't have any money that I knew of Saved from doing Opera and jingles, not that I was paid much in the first place. Most of it had gone to the family or trying to get my songs noticed. I had the Waiting Job But It wasn't the best pay but I guess I would have to keep at it longer if I wanted to help.

"You think we'll even manage this, raising them separately might not be best," She said and I groaned but knew she was right "We can save up to rent somewhere together, we don't have to be married but just living together co-parenting, I know it's not ideal But we really don't know what we're doing."

"We'll figure it out, I'll let you know when I've got a scan next I need to get back, " She says I nod as She left I sighed but nodded hoping this would work.

"Was everything okay?" My Mum asked as she left, I hoped she hadn't heard anything still scared of what they would say "yeah She just wanted to see how my College applications were going and If we were still meeting at the library next week" I lied hoping she wouldn't see through them but having 5 kids I was sure she could tell when one of us was lying.

"Mhm, as long as you're being careful" She sighs, giving me a glare. Yeah, it's already too late for that.

Once I was in my own thoughts I tried to take it in unsure how we were going to manage but hoped we would find a way. I always felt the best way to get my feelings was to write lyrics so I got my notepad out writing whatever came to mind, I didn't think I'd ever do anything with this but it was a release of my thoughts.