Zara's Beginings

A coming out

I headed back with Kayla before heading home myself I promised her that I would tell my Parents by the weekend, It was currently Thursday, and Yasmine would be home from college for a few days tonight and she was the only one I felt I could be honest with, we got on well even if she was older then me but we enjoyed working on things together, She is an amazing drawer.

After dinner, I asked Yasmine If We could talk alone.

"Mika are you okay, You've been distant all dinner, I know Mum and Papa are worried," She says going to hug me.

"I...I Can't tell them, They can't find out I can't be the cause for stress, not again" I said I knew how much they had done for me especially Mama how much she had tried to help me with my Music but This was different I didn't want to be the center of attention I didn't want to be the burden in the family.

"They care about you and if something's happening in college. If your being bullied again" Yasmine said taking my hands.

"I'm not being Bullied" I half lied, I was but that wasn't the issue now I could deal with bullies

"What is it then," Yasmine asked.

"Emily held a party at Valentine's for all her single friends to make us feel involved and I drank too much and I slept with someone, The Girl, Kayla....She's....She's pregnant" I told her it felt good to actually tell someone but I was scared of how she would react maybe this was a mistake maybe I shouldn't have said anything.

"What are you doing about it," Yasmine asked simply "You're an idiot"

"She...We are keeping it, I'm scared but She wants it and I know How important Family is so I want to be there for her" I told her honestly looking to my feet.

"Well, at least your smart about that" Yasmine Sighed "Mama will tell you to marry her to make it stable you knew how they are about that."

"That's why I can't tell them, I promised Kayla I would but I can't be forced to marry someone I don't care about in that way," I told her hoping she wouldn't guess. I hadn't told anyone I was gay but I knew. Sleeping with her made me sure.

"You slept with her so you must have."

"I...I slept with her because I was drunk and needed to be clear about what I wanted, about WHO I was attracted to"

Yasmine looked at me Blankly confused.

"I'm gay Yas, I will never be attracted to her or Any woman, I've tried but I just feel wrong, I like guys and that's scary too but I know that's who I am." I tried to explain

She didn't say anything just stared at me, I wasn't sure if she hated me if she'd tell mum and Papa make them kick me out However instead she just hugged me "You need to tell them, about the pregnancy but It's okay, That's who you are, Your my brother and I don't care who you like, You just need to be careful" She told me, My fears weren't real at least not with her, I could be relaxed but I knew both she and Kayla were right, I couldn't hide the pregnancy, I just hoped I could stay in the closet with them.