"Jennie, I knew.
...It's just ironic that I fixed you but all it did was nothing but breaking myself in the process
...But you know, I tried to keep it for myself
...I tried to pick my pieces together myself
...alone
...b-because Jennie... I love y...
The first days were good. Constant texts, constant replies. But after the first week, everything has changed. She said she will miss me. I believed.
But I guess I was wrong. It's only me who has the separation anxiety all this time. She won't reply. She won't answer my calls. I tried to reflect on myself because maybe I just missed her so much and I was too clingy that's why I overthink. But no, that's not the case. So I convinced myself that maybe she's just busy catching up with her family and preparing for Christmas.
Christmas Eve came, I've texted her tons, saying I love her, I miss her, and greeting her Merry Christmas. But I only got a reply saying:
Merry Christmas too!
No endearments. No hearts. Just plain text. I didn't know why, but I didn't ask. Because again, maybe I was just overthinking.
New Year came. I didn't text nor call her two days prior to see if she will notice, or she will initiate a conversation like she used too. But I got nothing. Not even a single greeting. That's when I asked her if she's okay. But I just got a text saying:
I'm busy Lis. Let's talk later.
I sighed. I am becoming more upset as the days passed by. She's never been this cold towards me. Did I do something wrong? Was I too clingy? Was I too paranoid? Did I go overboard at not texting her for days?
I sighed again for nth time. To make myself entertained, I went to my IG. I was scrolling for I while now but then, I saw Jennie's recent post.
I frowned. Who is this?
When I saw the tagged account, everything went clear why it was so familiar. I rechecked the date because I don't want to think negatively. Because maybe I'm just tripping. But then I saw it was 4 days ago. I felt my tears forming in my eyes. I smiled bitterly.
No, it's not that I don't know why. Of course, I got the hint. I was just scared that, the moment I ask her, I'll lose her. Not now that I have invested everything I have in our relationship. Not now that I have given her my innocence. Not now that I loved her so much. Of course, I know why, but I still didn't asked.
Because I trusted her. I believed her. So I forced myself to... dismiss it as I close my eyes and let the tears go.
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