This Is Not A Goodbye

chapter 19: betrayal

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Zoe

I'm going out with Adam today he said he has a surprise for me and I'm really curious. I think I love Adam he is so kind and nice he doesn't judge me or even body shames me

He doesn't mind the amount of times I pulled a knife on him but the dude has got to know how to male an entrance he can't just go scaring the living shit out of people

I'm a little curious though I'm a bit of a light and heavy sleeper at the same time and last night something happened

I was sleeping and suddenly I felt something to my neck at first I thought it was adam but it hurt a bit but me being me I shook it off but I'm definitely telling Adam today

I finally happy after all this time but I can't help but remember the past and all the pain I felt my mom and dad divorced. My whore ass step dad cheated on my mom with my asshole of a best friend now that you think about it she is kind of like Abby

She always compares herself to me and its not nice she also called me names and tried to get me skinny and shit like that I mean she is a bitch but I never took it into thought I always thought that's what best friends do and that I was just being difficult

But what upsets me the most is my dad he is such an angel or so I thought that's until he tried to kill Adam oh and let's not forget I thought he was dead like what the fuck

Hey control your language

Sorry Carrie I'm venting

Ok well we will keep it between us got it

Good now back to what I was saying my dad was my everything and did I forget to mention all the pain and suffering my mom had to go through because of him I mean she eventually got over it and got married again but that obviously didn't last long

And what now she's all alone because her daughter has to find her dad and kind of fell in love with her kidnapper

I'm so ashamed but I'm gonna ask Adam if I can visit her she mist be going through so much right now and I'm not there for her so

I wore a pink sun dress and some white sneakers with some accessories to match sure I don't have style but I always love to look good cause why not

I walked out our room to Adam office and I couldn't help but overhear him yelling at someone who I think is on the phone

"Tie him up and put a gun to his fucking head" Adam yells through the phone I wonder who he is talking to

"I have her she isn't going anywhere" he says and who is he talking about

He hung up before muttering something under his breath he quickly opens the door us now making eye contact

"who was on the phone" I asked

"Assholes you ready" he says and I nod I can't wait

We got into the car and adam places his hand on my thigh i realised that he has a habit of doing this

Not with his hand on my thigh but his two hands has to be occupied its kind of funny

Maybe he will use that other hand to finger you who knows

Shut up carrie why are you always so noisy

Adam starts driving and  I couldn't help but smell the smoke in the car is something wrong with it

I'm not sure ask him

No Carrie he's already mad for something

He continues driving and his hand tightened on the steering wheel his jaw clenched and his grip on my thigh tightened its kind of hurting

I hissed at the pain and adam quickly let go and muttering a quick 'sorry ' under his breath he looks really stressed but I'm sure it's nothing

"look I really like you but I am going to do something that's gonna make you hate me" he says out of the blue

"What" I said

He takes a deep breath "your dad is trying to kill me he has the file I'm dying to find and he wants you to stay away from me" he says before taking another breath

"okay" I said slowly

"I've been thinking about it and his words keep replaying in my head 'stay away from her' " he sighs before continuing so when you were sleeping I placed a eco device on you" he says And he did what is that what I was feeling last night

Why

He takes another breath

Oh oh I'm scared now

"the file is inside you" he says before making a right turn causing the tires to screech before pulling up to an abandoned building

What the hell is the file inside me how who what the thoughts running through my mind trying to find an explanation to all my questions

i turn to face adam tears now flooding down my cheeks as he stopped the car putting his two hands on the steering wheel and holding onto them tightly making his knuckles white

I'm don't know what to feel but I know for sure Adam is not going to betray me and try to get the file he would never do that I like him so much almost love him

Yeah I said it I love him

But I don't know if he feels that way for me so I'm not going to say it

Adam is my boyfriend the person I lay next to in bed the person who I tell everything to the person who makes me laugh he would never do that

turning to me his eyes glossy  "I'm sorry" he said before pulling a needle out of his blazer and inserting it into my neck

Son of a bitch

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That's chapter 19

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