This Is Not A Goodbye

chapter 17: insecure

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Zoe

I woke up to the sound of the door I slightly peeled my eyes open to see Adam smirking I miss him so much I don't know what I'd do if he had actually cheated on me

I knew he wouldn't do that

Oh yeah that's funny you actually thought he did

No I didn't but you seem to be bothering me alot so I'm gonna call you sandy

Oh god no I don't like that name

Fine we will change it to Carrie how about that

Not bad

"tell your brain to shut the fuck up and admire me" Adam pouts and I laugh

"its denying things but I told her to stop" I said

"good now cuddle me woman" he said and I did but he smells

I lean in closer to smell his shirt and it smelled of smoke

Does he smoke

Nope I have never seen him

"why do you smell like smoke" I asked

"I was shooting some guns I'm gonna shower" he said raising off the bed and stopped at the bathroom and turned around now facing me

"what" I ask

"wanna come" he said and I grin but quickly covered my mouth with my palm

"Cutie" he said and I hum in response trying not to laugh

"you have a really dirty mind" he said and I scoff

Like he doesn't he was just asking me to come in the shower

You heard that didn't you

Shut up Carrie your distracting me

"Cutie pay attention" Adam says and I don't even realised that he was now in front of me how did he get here so fast

Cause your were to busy paying attention to me

"Nah I think ill go to the next one" I said and he pulls my legs and hovering on me

Our faces inches apart our lips almost touching he slides his hand up my thing and gently grabbed them making my breath hitched but then I slowly relaxed

I gently kissed him and he gave in god i miss his kisses. Slightly moaning into the kissed he tilted his head deepening the kiss it was so smooth and relaxing his lips

God thing you wore that strawberry Chapstick

I'm gonna have to agree with you Carrie its a good thing I did

He slowly slides his hand under my shirt his cold rings making me shiver a bit and all the butterflies come rushing through my stomach he makes me feel so good. He moved to my neck finding my sweet spot sucking on it gently yet passionately

I slide my hand down unbuttoning his shirt and I feel him smirk against my skin as he removes his shirt and going back to my neck I smile as I see his gorgeous abs until I feel his hand stopped at the end of my bra and he looked at me asking for my permission and I nod

"cutie I need words" he said

"yes adam" I breath out and he smiled grabbing the hem of my shirt and pulling it over my head and unhooking my bra exposing my breasts

"your gorgeous" he said making me blush

He slowly trailed his hand at the side of my body and placing kisses on the bare skin of my chest getting a small moan out of me

"Hey guys do you know" zade,zane,Margaret and Ayna Walks in my their mouths dropped and eyes widened and adam quickly covers me with his body making sure nothing is exposed and I faced the ceiling in embarrassment

"um yeah so" zade says before all of them busted into laughter and faced the opposite direction

"GET THE FUCK OUT " adam yells at them and everyone quickly walks out and Ayna smirks and gives me two thumbs up

I burst into laughter and Adam looks at me in disbelief

"what its funny" I said and he groans

"How is it funny" he said slightly smiling

"because you were so horny" I said laughing even more

"oh yeah well we'll see who is horny now I'm going to take a shower" he said and I laugh even more rolling on the bed still half naked

Adam went to shower and I calmed down a little still not dressed and he walks out in his towel hanging low and his v line showing I smiled and looked the other direction

I don't even know what direction I'm looking but anywhere but there

"you know you can look right" he says walking to the door locking it

"I know but I choose not to" I said getting off the bed and putting my bra back on as well as my shirt

"why not" he says

"because if I do I will feel really horny and I don't want to feel that way" I said trying not to be distracted by Adam perfect physique
I mean who wouldn't drool at the sight of his body he looks like a freaking god unlike me

"and why don't you want to feel like that" he said snapping me out of my trance

"cause you won't be able to handle it" I said smirking but I lied I don't want him to see my whole body I am really insecure and the last time I had sex the guy said I wasn't good at it and that he has had better sex

After that I never wanted to have sex I was really glad that zade,zane,Margaret and Ayna barged in I don't think I could've stoped him it was good

I mean really good but I don't wanna make him feel unsatisfied what if he stops liking me or what if he mocks my body

He probably won't do that but I don't want to make him feel unsatisfied

"tell your brain to shut up" adam says snapping me out of my trance I don't even realised he got changed as he held onto my hand

"we will see about that darling" he says before walking out the door

How do I tell him
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That's chapter 18

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