This Is Not A Goodbye

chapter 23: breathe

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zoe

Its another night at the office and I haven't seen Adam which is a good sign because his entire appearance was a bit unexpected

  I didn't know how to feel whether to be angry or not my body had no clue what to feel but I just wanna get him out of my mind and I know a great way to do that

Clubbing

Yep Carrie you read my mind tequila solves everyone's problem and this was a hug problem that need fixing

I nod at my thoughts and decided to tell ayna

I found her in her office and I walked in without knocking and I got a text from one of my suppliers mr.Gomez he's a billionaire and he is hot and kind hearted any guy you could possibly want I even caught myself flirting with him a couple of times but I shook it off

I  entered with my head down talking on the phone with mr.Gomez he wants to meet for lunch tomorrow and I agreed

"hey Ayna want to go clubbing" I said with my head down and I heard no response till I raised my head seeing Adam the actual fuck where's ayna

"where's ayna" I said awkwardly looking around I even looked at the ceiling

"she went out she told me to stay here" he said and I nod walking out the room only to be stopped by him

"What" I said plainly

"you look good cutie" he said and my blood is boiling

"the names ms.diaz" I said and he looks at me with furrowed eyebrows

"diaz" he said confused and I nod

"as in zade Diaz" he says awkwardly "like you're married what the fuck" he shouts and I sigh

"yes Adam I'm married" I state in a sarcastic tone

"what" he say his eyes red with furry his tone vulgar and if this was a cartoon there would be smoke coming out his ear

"yeah you didn't know" I said laughing I couldn't help it was too funny

"fuck you zoe" he said

"oh you'd love too" I said and laughed even louder holding onto my stomach

He walks closer to me and I stand straight with every step he takes closer I took one step back until my back hits a wall

Us inches apart his smell erupts my nose the muscular scent and the perfume he is wearing fumergates my nose his hair is shaped perfectly why is he always wearing a suit

No zoe snap out of it you can't get hurt again

"Yes zoe I would love to fuck you but I don't think you would let me" he says chuckling a bit this dumbass had the audacity to say that does he have no self respect

No he's Adam

Right the mother fucker who betrayed me

I sighed and pushed him away and walked out the door going to look for ayna

Adam quickly follows behind me

"what are you doing"

"the same thing you are looking for ayna" he said and I sighed

I walked to the main hall all the lights are on and my employees have not left yet its quite busy

I turned to my right and see mr.Gomez what is he doing here he was supposed to meet me tomorrow

He walks up to me and I couldn't help but check him out he's perfect all the way from how is hair perfectly shaped to how he where's his blazer and the tie slightly loosen around his neck

Stop drooling you idiot

I quickly snapped out of my trance and stand straight I put my hand out for him to shake and he does

"what are you doing here I thought we were suppose to meet tomorrow"

"I just got a meeting tomorrow so I thought I could come now unless its a problem" he says

"no no so what's up" I said and he laughs

"well I just wanted to ask you if......you ....if" he said and his eyes trail to where Adam had placed his hand on the small of my back how did I not feel that

I ignored it and looked at mr.Gomez

"you were saying" I said and he laughs

"don't bother I just wanted to know if we are still set on Wednesday with the raw materials" he said and I nod followed with a laugh

"Great great I got to go now" he said and I nod

Why was he acting so awkward

I shake the thought out my head and I turn to Adam who was glaring at me I shrug and pulled his hand off me and as soon as i did i missed it

I ignored my thoughts and  walked to the bathroom ignoring everyone as well

I walked in and my breathing got heavy and I grasp for air why does this always happen to me

Why does he have such a big impact on me its stupid I should be hating him he did all does things to me and I just forgave him no way I have to resist he isn't worth my time

Sure I missed those days he would lay next to me and we will talk or even fall asleep together

Or maybe even when we had late night talks on top of a building

The memories flooding back in and this time I couldn't get them out they were alive they were there and I gave in

Remembering the time I took a big sip from the bottle of alcohol he had he laughed so hard at me

Or when he I took his clothes without permission they were so many memories that I could say no to no matter how hard I try to lat go of my past no matter how I try to plan my future cause I know that this was going to always be with me

I looked at myself in the mirror realizing that I had calmed my breathing I sigh he even controls how I breathe its unfair I'm sure I don't even have an impact on him

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That's chapter 23

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