This Is Not A Goodbye

chapter 26: (THIS)

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Zoe

In her dreams*

16 year old zoe

"hey zoe want some ice cream" my dad opens my door and asks

"yeah sure dad" I said getting out my bed and walking to the kitchen my mom wasn't home and I didn't want to go to school today my neck was hurting pretty badly

I'm not sure why but its probably how I slept I also felt really drowsy and I wanted to faint

My dad didn't seem to have a problem with me staying home so I felt relived I could tell my dad anything he was my best friend and I love him so much

I love my mom too but she is barely around she went to work day and night some nights we had dinner and then she went to work but dad was always with me

"How are you feeling" my dad asked scooping the ice cream in a bowl and I sit on a stool

"good a little sore that's all" I said and he shrugged he must be tired or he would have given me a whole lecture on how I should sleep its pretty annoying

"zoe I have to leave for a couple of days" he said and I shrugged dad had business trips every month I was used to it

"sure dad" I said eating my ice cream it tasted so good chocolate is my favourite and my mom walked in

I didn't know she was home

Oh well

"hey mom when did you get home" I asked her and she gives me a lopsided smile

"zoe your mom and I have something to tell you" my dad says and my mom sighs

I wonder what's wrong

"Zoe your dad and I are taking a break from each other" she said and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion

"Like a day and two" I asks which was a bad idea

"were getting divorced honey" she said and I feel my eyes glossy

"what why"

"it just isn't working out honey" my dad says

"And zoe you won't be seeing me again" he said and I started crying

"what why"

"its just the way hun I'm sorry" my mom says walking towards me and wrapping her arms around me trying to comfort me

"Please mom I'm sorry what ever I did I'm sorry" I cry

"no sweetie its okay" she said wiping my tears away

"sorry I'm sorry" I beg this can't be happening I was so happy what are we gonna do now

I sob uncontrollably and raced to my room and dropped on my bed

What did I do

I did this why

I cry into my pillows my tears soaking into my bed sheet

I love my parents why would they do this I want to talk about it but I can't

No no no this can't be happening I love my parents and they love me

Whatever I did I'm sorry

Adam

I held onto her we came back last night and I didn't want to let her sleep on her own so I'm sleeping with her of course I asked fore her permission I don't want her to fell uncomfortable she was scared and her emotions were not in the right place she's hurt and I didn't want her to feel that I would gladly take her pain even if it means to take all of it

Despite everything she's been through she is a really strong girl and her strengths are meant to be acknowledged she is funny and kind sweet and amazing she's a talker I'll admit that but that's the best part and I mean we are talking about the girl who pulled a knife and a gun on me she didn't know how to use either one of them or the fact that she eats gummy worms with pancakes the girl has a major sweet tooth and  her soft and gentle touch is all I need to survive

I'll admit I was pissed at that loser Gomez had his hands all over her if only she knew that he fucks girls onto to dump them the other day and I hate the way he felt the need to touch her I can see it in his eyes he liked her when she wasn't looking at him he kept checking out her ass

Yes she has an amazing ass but show some respect

I missed her I missed us if only things could go back to the way it was but I don't expect it to zoe is hurting right now and she needs me and I'm going to be there for her no matter what

I looked down where she nuzzles her head in the crook of my neck and it looks like she is having a nightmare

Without a second thought I shook her awake

"Sorry!!" She yells and I looked at her confused who was she apologising to

"sorry" she said controlling her breathing

"its okay" I said softly and pulled her towards me cuddle with her once more

God I miss her

She starts crying he sobs filled the room and I placed my hand over her comforting her whittled body her warm body screams pain

I stooped lower looking at her and her eyes are glossy the pain conceived her

"what's wrong" I said

"its all my fault" she said and how the fuck can she blame herself for this

This is all her dads fault why is she blaming herself

"no its not" I said and she nods

"it is and you know what my parents separating was all my fault " I put them through so much pain I put myself through all this pain and I shouldn't be crying

She says raising her head and wiping her tears

"yes you should zoe you have to let the pain go you can't keep it all in" I said and its true the more she keeps it in the more it'll hurt her

"I think you need to talk to your mom" I said raising off the bed I don't want to make her feel uncomfortable

"no don't leave ill talk to her don't leave please" she says and I nod

"I'm not I'm just gonna go make sure is alright at the club and zoe you should really talk to your mom" I said and she nods getting up and wrapping her hands around my neck hugging me

Oh boy I missed her hugs and I grabbed her and hugged her back and she pulls away

"alright I'm gonna go talk of her thanks adam" she says

"no need to thank me ill be back this is not a goodbye" I said and she laughs

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That's chapter 26

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