This Is Not A Goodbye

chapter 25: questions

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Zoe

Recap:"you're coming with us honey" a familiar voice says and oh no I know that voice to well

Its my dad

What in the actual fuck come one man is this is how my week is gonna be like first Adam shows up out of nowhere two years after I left and

now my dad is here getting ready to probably kill me right when I finally think my life was perfect and finally got together its turns to shit within two fucking days

this is so stupid and I want to scream on the top of my lungs but I hold my emotions in

one thing I learnt in this absurd life of mine is that crying is showing emotion and showing emotion is bad

people well family will take advantage of you and well you won't be worth anything

The more I think about it the more it makes sense my parents were my only comfort till my dad betrayed us and well my mom was a mess until we got back together

so there is only one person to leave to make your entire life into shit and well I experience alot of it but with every person leaving someone came in like adam,dad and well mom but they all came back in some I left and still on a good note others are slowly making there way in while the rest is just pure anger and fury

I looked over to adam who is frozen he stands there like a statue not sure of what to do but I'm one to talk I'm more confused as ever

My dad walks closer to me and held out his hand I hesitated a bit before holding mine into his

You know it kind of feels strange the last time I held onto his hand was when I was four

Flashback*

"dad are we safe" I ask my dad he's the best I was getting bullied in school today and I came home crying it was the worst feeling in the world everyone in the hall looking and laughing at you

I felt so afraid and I couldn't take it anymore I left and I ran something I'm good at because I can never face my own fears

I ran home and dad was there he looked confused at first but then quickly rushed to me holding me in his arms

His warm arms felt so good my dad gave the best hugs you would always feel same in them

Without hesitation I hugged him back savoring his touch my dad is the best in the entire world

End of flashback*

I looked at my dad whilst all the memories kept flooding in he looked different freshly shaven his hair combed neatly and he was wearing a suit

He didn't look like my dad and I certainly didn't feel safe in his touch

We held hands and adam grunts "if you fucking hurt her I will kill you" he said with anger coursing through his veins

"And why would you think I'd hurt my zoe" he said and I felt closet my eyes filling up with water what is he doesn't want to hurt me that it was all a lie and he just wanted to keep me safe it could be

I closed my eyes seeing ayna and the twins in pain my grip on my dads hand tightens and I let a tear slip one at least before quickly wiping it away only adam noticing

My dad let go of my hand and trailed to the back of my neck the stiches are still there and I think that's where the file was my dad wants it he wants the file not me

"where is the file" my dad grits now holding onto my elbow tightening his grip on me and I hiss

"I have if now let her go" adam says

"no you're lying" my dad says

"no I'm not I can give it to you right now just let her go" adam says and my dad nods and adam hands him the drive grabbing onto my other hand and pulling me towards him

I was safe now in Adams arms I knew I was at least I think so my dad looks at the drive and nod for one of his men to bring a laptop

He plugged the drive in and files start appearing and he smiled his even smile seems to make him happy he isn't my dad anymore

he's a traitor

He's a liar

He's a criminal

He is not my dad

I sigh and held onto adam and tight as possible my dad turns towards us and straightened his back fixing the cuffs on his suite

He is looking at me and I happily stared back at him I won't let him see how weak I am

"how your mom" he asks

"she's fine she's happy" I said and he grins

"is she now" he said and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion "she shouldn't be she's a slut" he said and fuck weakness now that my blood is boiling and fury gains I'm ready to lash out

Sliding my hand into Adams blazer I grabbed a gun and pointed it to my dad

I unlock safety and aimed to his head "don't ever talk about her like that again do you hear me" I grit

"or what" he said raising his hand and shaking it is he seriously giving me jazz hands while I'm holding a gun to his fucking head is he serious right now "you're mother fucked other men didn't she tell you" he said and I sigh

She did well when she was drunk she said that there was a time that dad had lost his job and they had a mortgage,rent and other bills to pay

So she worked several jobs waitress by day and stripper by night she even went on about how she had to do things to make money its sad she had to do alk those things to keep our family from going homeless

"she was a dirty little low life and was a complete whore" and that's when I lost it

I pulled the trigger

Blood spilling from his head he kneels and adam quickly taking the gun from my hand disarming the guards and killing them while I stood there still

Replaying in my mind of what I had just done how could I do that I shot my dad in his head there is a hole in his head

I'm fucking screwed

With tears flooding out my eyes adam pulls me into his chest hugging me tightly I don't know what to feel

Angry

Sad

Happy

I have no idea is he really dead for real this time

Is this the last time I'll see him

Will this haunt me forever

The questions running through my head
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That's chapter 25

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