Assassin [18+]

In body

§Morgana Acampora§

After picking up Jack and Russell, we were taken to a different house, not Eros – I need to talk to him but I've done enough damage today so I'll talk to him tomorrow again when he's cooled down.

"Dad?" I said as I entered the kitchen, looking for him.

My dad was standing behind the stove "Yes sweetheart?" he looked at me over his shoulder, turning off the only burner he had on.

"I need someone to talk to who knows nothing about this situation," I scratched the back of my head. "I don't think I've been making good decisions lately and Russell is already sleeping so I have time."

"Sure," he seemed pleasantly surprised by my ask. "Want something to drink? Maybe a snack."

I shook my head with a gentle smile "No, I'm fine dad but thank you for asking."

"Of course," he picked up his glass with sparkling water inside. "Outside would be okay?"

"Perfect," I led him out to the vast backyard with a view of the family vineyard. My parents never brought me here but I knew they owned a house around here. Hopefully, this talk can give me some insight into what I'm supposed to do – I don't mean to hurt anyone but keeping relationships isn't my forte and I'm bound to hit a few bumps along the way.

"What's wrong, princess?" he asked as soon as we were seated in the swing by the pool.

I rubbed my hands together "Well, I'm just confused about what I'm supposed to do. Yesterday I was sure I could build something with Eros, before that I felt like Cristian could be the one, and today when I saw Russell it just felt right," I frowned, showing my despair and confusion. "I don't want to hurt anyone but–"

"Princess, you come first," he told. "Don't you think you should be alone for a while? You have things to figure out."

"But my baby...they need a father," my hands fell on my belly as worrisome took over me. "I didn't have you for most of my life and I desperately needed you...I don't want my baby to feel that," my comment might have hurt my dad but it's what I feel.

"Regardless of who you choose as a significant other, that baby is going to have a father; whichever of the three men you've chosen to be intimate with and has gotten you pregnant, he will want to be involved and so will the other two, princess, they adore you and so do I."

"But I don't want to be alone, dad, I don't know how to be alone," tears sprung my eyes. "I've always been in a relationship with someone, even if it's just sexual."

My dad took a deep breath "Listen, princess, I know it sounds scary but for your own good and my grandchild's you need to learn how to love yourself before loving somebody else. I have never practiced it, and look where it's gotten me," he showed me a gentle smile.

"But I've already told Russell I'm going with him to Somerset and he's so excited," my voice broke; it was absolutely foolish of me to take such rushed decisions "and now I have to break his heart too because I'm a stupid cunt–"

"You are neither of those things, Morgana," he scooted closer and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. "Neither your mother nor I gave you the tools to get around these situations in life so it's not your fault, you were never taught differently or at all...Russell is a good man and he will understand; he seems to be so deeply in love with you and so are Eros and Cristian."

"Can't seem to stop hurting people," tears ran down my cheeks "even if I don't mean it I'm always there to cause pain."

"If they don't understand that you need to go down another path to have a much happier and healthier life then they are not worth your time, princess," my dad pecked the top of my head. "I know I haven't been a good parent, Morgana, but from now on I won't take my eye off you; you're my life and I need to mend things."