Villain's Chance

CHAPTER 48 - Bucket List

Bucket List

Here's the thing, people know they get older as the years pass by. Time flies without anyone realizing. Then one day they'll see — probably on the internet — small stuffs like their old favorite movie turning a decade or 2 decades old, a joke that no one in the younger generation knows, maybe a very old commercial throwback. In that moment, it'll suddenly hit you; you're getting old. It's funny but sad at the same time.

That's what I felt as my sister handed me a small notebook and a pen and frankly, but politely asked me if I want to write a bucket list. A short term for things that I want to do before my life expires.

'I guess I'm really dying.' I told myself.

It's funny but sad at the same time.

Am I weird? In movies, whenever a character is dying, they always make a bucket list to make the best out of the time they have. Sometimes, it's the whole point of the movie. But it was like a countdown for me. Like a timer for a bomb.

What happens when I finish all that was in the list? Do I die then? Or maybe, die before I even finish it? Such thoughts filled my brain.

"Y-you don't have to force yourself." Amandine took back the notebook in an awkward manner. Maybe she sensed my uneasiness. "No, it's fine." I said before she even managed to completely take it away from me. I was seriously fine with it. A little uneasy, but still fine. So she gave back the notebook in my hands and I stared at the blank pages as I flip through it.

Here's one more thing. "It feels cringey." I bluntly said.

"Huh? Bakit naman?" Amandine asked, confused.

"Well... they do this a lot in movies, right? It's just kind of cliche, I guess?" Paliwanag ko.

"But, it's the list of things you want to do and only yours. Not the movie characters. How would that be cliche?"

I smiled a bit. "Yeah, I guess you're right."

*

Amandine left eventually, leaving me alone in my room, still staring at the blank notebook.

But even after staring at it for a couple of minutes, I still don't know what I should write so I stopped thinking about it for a while and sighed.

I think I need some fresh air. 

I carefully got up from the hospital bed. It's been 3 days since I woke up from the surgery and I am well enough now to take small walks. Pero bago pa ko makahakbang, bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto ko at tumambad dito si Minami kaya naman umupo ulit ako sa kama. "Hi neighbor!" Masiglang bati niya sa'kin. Wala na siyang saklay pero alalay pa din siya sa paglakad niya. Now he's like a foot taller than me. I see now that he's well built and can really tell that he's an athlete. "Nice. Madi-discharge ka na ngayon?" Tanong ko sa kaniya at masaya naman siyang tumango. "Yup! Today is the day! I just wanted to stop by para magpaalam sa'yo." Sagot niya.

"Good for you." I said. It was a genuine comment but also a little jealous for his complete recovery. "Don't ever come back here." Pabiro kong dagdag.

"Well that, I can't promise. Because I'll still try and get back to the league." Katwiran naman niya. "What about you? Ang sabi sa'kin ni Amandine malapit ka na din daw i-discharge?" Tanong niya sa'kin.

"Yeah. Inaantay lang namin ang permission ng doctor." Sagot ko.

The main reason why I needed to be confined here for the treatment in the first place is because no one can take care of or watch over me if I stay in my house. But now that everything is out, my parents wanted me to come home with them. At least doon, they can watch over me. No one would have to worry if I might collapse or die somewhere without no one knowing. "It doesn't mean that I won't come back here though." Dagdag ko. I didn't mean it to sound depressive but it unintentionally ended up like that and changed the whole mood and no one said a word.