Just two weeks into the New Year
My body looks the same, feels heavier
Outwardly fine, merry sunshine
Inside it's dark, this mind of mine
What's wrong? Nothing really
Morning's birdsong, evenings chilly
Life goes on, just willy-nilly
The hurt within, sometimes sad, sometimes silly
What happened?
Lost a friend, downward trend
A relative's health, lost in stealth
Spouse's mood, ruined food
Kids' illness, prayers for wellness
Within me, a thousand changes
From trivial to major, the feeling ranges
I live and learn, now fast, often slow
I stand up again, after every blow
Tho' I made mistakes, my intentions true
Should I have done different, I've often mulled
The cut has closed, the pain has dulled
Though wounds were many, the scars but few
Let go the burden, time to move on
Need time to grieve, too soon, another dawn
My mind may accept, but my heart resists
Get over it, my common sense insists
Yes, I have put on weight
But fat isn't the issue
I've got to rid my heart
Of all this old scar tissue
Given up on crying,
I'm really trying
My words are stuck, it's no use
Casting out the junk, I've lost my Muse
Continued writing, through sheer power of will
Alas! now my poor pen comes to a standstill!
