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Chapter 17

“Kalli?” His deep voice spoke, ever so recognizable. I heard the door downstairs shut lightly and more tears began to stream from my eyes. “mm” I replied in a whimper.

“I can’t do it anymore- I really can’t A-” I said through my choked tears, my voice cracking as the words left my mouth. 

“Don’t cry Kalli..it’s going to be okay. What’s wrong?” He asked, his voice was noticeably softer as he spoke. That was something he always said, but it never was. It’s never going to be.

“Just everything…I don’t know what to do.” I said in a whisper. I felt so vulnerable and like a child; completely helpless. 

“Don’t worry Kalli, whatever it is…I’ll sort it out. Just like old times.” He said, a hint of something in his voice that I couldn’t quite identify. 

“But-” I began to speak but the line went dead. How was he meant to solve something he knew nothing about? 

I threw the phone down onto my bed, a mixture of feelings swirling around my stomach. I knew that I shouldn’t have called him…I’d done it because the last time I’d felt like this, he was the reason behind it. 

I fell backwards onto my bed. The tears had stopped falling from my eyes and my body felt numb. Luke had believed her over me. Me. I couldn’t get the image of Luke out of my mind; the way he had looked at me when he thought I’d done that to her.

I pulled my duvet up to my face and closed my eyes, the reminiscent of the tears seeping through my eyelashes. I pushed every thought out of my mind and realised how truly exhausted I was. And before I could do anything else my body fell into a silence.

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I woke the next day still in my school uniform and my face still damp from last night’s tears. I swung my feet onto the ground and stretched my arms up above me, that sick feeling still there in my stomach. I reached for my phone and read the screen; 9.00am. I sighed with a slight gruff in my voice. 

I got into the shower, the warm water falling over my body and face. I thought about telling Mum about the fact that Dad had showed up yesterday, but I decided against it. She was finally starting to seem ‘normal’ again and she didn’t need Dad showing up to change that. 

Once I got out the shower I threw my hair into a towel and wrapped my body in another before falling onto my bed once again. My stomach began to flutter as I remembered that the talent show was tonight; that meant I was going to have to see Luke again. 

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“Mum I’m off to the talent show, I’ll be home in a few hours.” I told her, tottering quietly down the stairs. 

“Should I save you some dinner?” She asked with a smile, chopping onions. 

“Yeah sure, thanks.” I smiled as I watched her. I knew I’d made the right decision in not telling her. She was miles away from her self just a few weeks ago, but I could still see how hurt she was behind her smiling eyes; she hid it well enough though. 

“Well have a good time, love.” She told me. 

“I’m sure I will.” I lied, a grin still firm on my face. As I turned to the door the smile fell and my blank,bleak stare returned. 

I walked in the evening sun, a daunting feeling building up and up in my stomach. I’d decided to curl my brown locks and put a bit more effort into my appearance, not that it mattered to anyone. 

I stepped into the auditorium, most seats were full with parents chatting away. The curtains on the stage were drawn and a lone microphone with a stool stood on it.