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Chapter 12

*Luke’s P.O.V*

I opened the front door, pulling my hood from my head, small droplets of water falling onto my shoulder. I walked into the living room, seeing two figures on the sofa. Only when I walked closer to them did I see their faces. Her face. Jai had his arm around her and her body was close to his, her head resting on his chest.

I felt a pang of something rise inside me, maybe anger, maybe something else..

I walked closer to Jai, my feet light on the ground. I raised my hand, hitting him lightly on the side of the head. He opened his eyes, startled almost. He looked to Kalli before his eyes fell on me. His eyes widened and his arm fell from around her waist slyly as if to hide it from me. 

“What the fuck Luke?” He whispered, rubbing the side of his head.

“‘What the fuck Luke?’ I think I should be asking what the fuck Jai!” I whispered through gritted teeth, my hand gesturing between them both. 

“Shh!” He said loudly, looking to Kalli to ensure she was asleep. “Let me explain.” He whispered, his tone calm.

He got up from the sofa, putting a pillow beneath Kalli’s head as it left his chest. She was still soundly asleep, that same serene look that I’d seen on her face many times before as she slept. 

I shook my head slightly, that same feeling that I’d been feeling for a few weeks start to immerse my body again. Jai followed me into our room, but there was nothing I could do to get her face out of my mind. 

*Kalli’s P.O.V*

My eyes fluttered open and I stretched my arms above my head, for a moment forgetting my surroundings. I yawned, my vision clearing up further. I looked around me for Jai but he wasn’t there. That same feeling of loneliness began to creep back into my stomach, but I pushed it aside. 

I heard murmurs coming from Luke and Jai’s bedroom. I got up from the sofa quietly before edging over to the door. I nosily placed my ear to the door, hearing their voices clearer. 

“What the fuck Jai, why is she here lying in your arms asleep like that?!” A voice that could only be matched to Luke’s said angrily. 

“She’s just going through some things..” He said, his voice just above a whisper. 

“You two aren’t seeing each other are you?” Luke asked, his voice not angry but almost vulnerable. 

“No!” Jai said loudly. 

“Well I wouldn’t be surprised.” Luke added bitterly, his previously vulnerable tone now egotistical and conceited. That comment had hurt.

“Come on Luke that was a bit harsh..”

“Don’t say stuff like that and pretend like you understand what I’m going through Jai.” Luke said bluntly, his voice cracking slightly. 

“Kalli?” A louder voice asked from behind me. I spun around, my hands behind my back. Beau smirked at me, his green eyes shining. 

“I was just-” I told him, trying to avert from the fact I was listening to Luke and Jai’s conversation.

“You were being a nosy parker that’s what!” He laughed, pulling me into a warm embrace. I smiled up at him, his brown hair falling just above his eyes just like it always had.

The door opened and I stepped beside Beau, attempting to make it look like I hadn’t been listening in. Jai walked out, his face slightly flustered. He smiled warmly at me and I mouthed ‘Thank you.” And he mouthed back ‘Anytime’ whilst still smiling with a sparkle in his eyes. He walked over to the sofa before falling onto it and flipping through the channels. 

“This is the perfect opportunity!” Beau turned to me excitedly, whispering. 

“What do you mean?” I asked him, completely lost. 

“I’ve been thinking, how I could get you and Luke to talk, and now this is the perfect opportunity!” He beamed. 

“I don’t know..” I whispered, my eyes falling to the floor. “Luke doesn’t want to talk to me..” I trailed off. 

“Well he doesn’t have a choice!” He winked. He had this look in his eyes, like he was up to something. He edged forward before picking me up into his arms and throwing me over his shoulder. 

“Beau what are you doing?!” I bellowed, hitting his back. “Put me down!” I ordered. He walked forward a few steps, opening Luke’s door and walking into the room. He put me down, my feet hitting the floor lightly. Beau slipped something into his pocket and my eyes diverted to Luke, his eyes widened slightly. 

“I want you two to talk and before you two do, I’m not letting either of you out.” He said quickly before leaving the room and closing the door. I heard a clicking noise before trying to leave the room myself, Luke’s eyes had been directed back to his phone, I knew he didn’t want to talk. 

But the door didn’t budge. I could hear Beau’s giggles coming from the other side. “Beau you little shit.” I muttered, just loud enough for him to hear. I turned back around, leaning on the door for support. 

“So..” I said, an awkward air surrounding us. He continued to be glued to his phone. “FOR FUCK SAKE LUKE, TALK TO ME!” I screamed. He raised his head and smacked his lips together. 

“What do you specifically wanna talk about Kalli? About how you fucking smashed my heart into a million pieces? About how you used me in your twisted little games? About how you made me feel like you actually cared about me?” He spat the words out like venom. 

“You never let me explain Luke.” I told him. 

“Well explain then.” He said monotonously. 

“You don’t understand how sorry I am Luke. It was never meant to be like this.. After I saw what I did at that party I was so angry, I wanted to get back at Beau so badly. He promised he wouldn’t hurt me, but he did and-“

“And I was the first target you saw to use?” He added sardonically. I exhaled heavily, feeling my skin begin to burn with anger. 

“And at first it was like that, but then I fell for you. I fell in love with you Luke, don’t you get that?” I told him, baring all. He blinked heavily, his eyes not leaving mine.”I fell in love with everything about you. The way you can make me laugh when I’m upset, how hot headed you get sometimes, your smartass-ness, the way you’re so passionate about things and the way you would always put anyone you cared about before yourself. You’re so different Luke, different toanyone I know, better than anyone I know-“

But before I could finish, I was interrupted.

Luke leaped off the bed, racing over to me. He placed both his hands on the side of my head and crashed his lips onto mine. One of his hands fell to the small of my back and pulled my body close to his, the closest it could have possibly been. It felt so good to have his lips against mine again, his tongue tracing my top lip. This was different to any of our kisses, the was filled with passion and heat. Magical. It felt like the kiss you would give someone if you were saying goodbye, like you were putting all your emotions into one last kiss…

He drew back slightly, his breathing shallower than it had been, his warm brown eyes glistening. 

“So after that Luke, tell me you don’t love me again.” I smiled slightly, my hand tracing his burning cheek slightly. 

“I-I don’t love you Kalli.” 

For a moment I thought he was joking, but the emotionless expression on his face told me otherwise. His hand fell from my back and he stepped back slightly. I couldn’t help but let a single tear fall from my eye as I looked at him.He actually meant it.

“You can take it back Luke. You can say it was a joke.” I whispered. But he didn’t say anything, his eyes fell to the floor. I heard the door open from behind me and I turned around to see Beau stood there, his face truly sad.

I walked through the door, past Beau, past Jai and out the door, not saying a single word. And right now if someone was to ask; how are you feeling? 

I would say;

Nothing. I feel nothing.