Summer Of August || RYEJI

Chapter 35

August 04, 2021

After wiping my runny nose with my hand, a red but not a translucent view appears in my sight.

"That's for leaving your girlfriend behind," Yuna said who's standing in front of me while looking so proud of what she have done. I've never been into physical fight ever since and she had me when she locked her hands on my head before smacking my face with her knee.

Actually, I feel guilty for making Lia leave like that. But I can't take it anymore. I can't pretend forever. After completing the puzzle of Mom and Dad's love story, I realized that I don't wanna end up like them. I don't wanna get tied up with somebody I don't really love.

"You're a shit, y'know that? I know she's a shit too but you shouldn't be treating someone else's as how they treat you, didn't Yeji tell you that?! Lia was walking alone the street bringing her things yesterday and do you wanna hear that so bad?!" Yuna pulled me close by grabbing the collar of my shirt, "What on earth...you're nothing but a wimp. How can you do that to her? You brought her here without bringing the responsibility as her girlfriend?" her eyes shows nothing but madness.

I shut my eyes after deeply breathing, "She...she decided to come along..." I whispered but Yuna suddenly hit my head.

"You're making an unreasonable reason right now, Ryujin. Just admit that you're fucked up."

"I'm so fed up...okay? I don't love her." I said despite of the fact that she's dominating right now and she might beat the shit out of me in no time.

Yuna's taller than me. She looks so femme that I didn't see this coming. I know she's got a point but...I can't let go of my own point.

"You don't love her?" she asked, laughing in front of my face. "So you love fooling people around then?" Yuna's grip on my collar becomes tighter that it's making my heart race even more but I shouldn't show her how afraid I am.

"I loved Yeji ever—" with that, Yuna bangs her head on mine that made me let out a whimper. My bum falls on the ground as I holds on my forehead, feeling the stinging pain.

"If there's one person that could ever love her for long, it won't be you but me." she said which made my eyes widen, "IF YOU LOVED YEJI FOR LONG YOU WOULDN'T HAVE LEAVE HER BEHIND! YOU LEFT EVERYONE BEHIND SO YOU HAVE NO PLACE IN HERE! NOT AT ALL!" she yelled.

She's telling the truth anyways...

I left them behind. Sohee died. She probably waited for me for years. Mom probably missed me so much but she couldn't tell me. Dad probably felt the same.

Until they got used to feeling that way because I left them behind. If only I didn't leave Yeji. If only I got the courage to tell her how much I adore her.

"Yuna-yah, why are you shouting up—" it's Sol, "What the—Ryujin! What the fuck Yuna-yah?" Sol quickly came, she caresses my face, trying to tell me to look at her.

"Can you stop that pity, Sol?! Please stop that! Just because she's Sohee's sister you'll treat her like a baby?! She's way different from Sohee! She's nothing but a dumb person!" Yuna shouted which hurt my ego that's why I slowly pushes Sol away.

She's right. Yuna seems smart and I know that she knows what she's talking about. I am way far from Sohee. I'm out of their league.

"Yuna-yah...did you have a fight with Ryujin?" a soft and gentle voice behind Yuna's back.

Sol immediately got up. She seems so caring as a sister.

"What are you doing here, Yeji?" Sol asked, walking towards Yeji's direction. "Why did you come here all by yourself? What if you doze off while walking on the staircases? I told you I'll peek to see the commotion here, right?"

Instead of answering Sol, Yeji finally tap Yuna's shoulder after walking pass by her worried sister, "Shin Yuna, why are you such a troublemaker? Didn't I tell you to keep that fists cool?" Yeji modestly talks as she holds Yuna's hands.

I can see how Yuna easily gives in. Yuna surely is in love.

I shakes my head before getting up. If they didn't come, Yuna might've thrown me off this rooftop already.

"Ryujin-ah,"

My eyes brightens when Yeji called my name. She's now walking to my direction wearing a bright smile. She look so kind...

"Forgive our Yuna—our friends told me that she's a troublemaker ever since. I'm really sorry." Yeji said that's why I smiled at her.

"I-It's fine, I understand where she's coming. It's alright, Yeji."

I wonder if she knows that Yuna likes her...

"You've got wounds on your face...does it hurt?" Yeji gently touches my forehead that gives butterflies in my stomach.

Yeji...I'm sorry for feeling this way and betraying your lover which happened to be my sister. I'm so sorry.

"Yeji, keep your hands off that filthy—" Yuna's supposed to interfere but Yeji lifted her right arm and gestured her to stop.

"Stop being stubborn, Yuna-yah." Yeji said. Yuna was about to utter again but decided to keep her mouth shut at the end.

"Thank you..." I whispers.

I can see the concrete ground of this rooftop and my falling tears on it. I hate myself. But I wouldn't disrespect Sohee as long as I don't pursue Yeji, right? I'm just gonna be right here. I'm just gonna be around her to assure that she'll be fine because her condition bothers me.

I'm not betraying you, right, Sohee?

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