Never Have I Ever

Eleventh Shot

Kari

What's with the tension here? May hindi ba ko nalalaman?

I was having a plate of desserts in my hand–because why not–when I noticed Calix and Elliot talking very closely with one another in the far end of this large dining hall. This place was so damn big that I felt like this was the exact same ballroom where Cinderella met her with Prince Charming. I would've found this place magical with its tall ceilings, stone walls and traditional medieval design if I still believed in fairytales but right now, I'm just having fun with my food.

It was the only way that I could cope with what happened this afternoon. Straight men really creep me out, especially the redhead who tried to grab my wrist earlier without my consent. I hope he was doing fine since I heard that he was sent to the hospital after I walked out. Whoever did that for me, I'd like to thank them in person with all my heart. It literally saved my ass.

But enough about that. I couldn't help but wonder what those two men with Greek God looks and wearing similar coloured suits--one was grey while the other was white--were conversing so heatedly about. And may I just interject, they were intimately close for comfort! If I didn't know any better, I'd think that Elliot was some jealous boyfriend who was asking his lover where he went with those heated gazes.

Of course, I could be wrong and my sense of reading BLs could be getting the best of me. Also, I wouldn't want to misgender anyone. But if anyone would see them cheek to cheek, they'd have wild ideas too.

After their heated discussion–whatever it was about–Elliot turned his back on Calix and the latter only watched him from afar. Is it just me or does he look like he was in pain? Para siyang iniwan na lang sa ere na ewan.

"Hey, you okay?" I don't know what came over me but I approached Calix before he could leave by the door. He literally just arrived and he was already walking out. Ba't ang atat umalis na para bang may tinatakasan? Not that I'd put it against him for leaving since this party was pretty much boring but still, did he even eat? The food's divine here.

"Uh, yeah. I'm fine." He stuttered and he seemed at a loss for words while looking at me from head to toe. Ganun ba ko kapanget tingnan? I was wearing a long sleeve gold lace dress that reached my knees since it compliments my skin colour. I also paired it with slingback heels of a similar shade. Meanwhile, I put on some light makeup because I wouldn't want to look like an embarrassment as my coloured hair was designed like a crown braid. If I really looked that bad, why can't he take his eyes off of me?

"Have you eaten?" I sound like a concerned mother but really, has he eaten? That's literally the most important thing right now. It's already past 7 in the evening so it's a big issue for me.

"No. Not yet." He replied and cleared his throat while shaking his head. He kept fidgeting with the bottom button on his suit's jacket as if he was nervous about something. Baka gutom talaga siya?

Or did he feel embarrassed that I saw him with Elliot? Was that scene supposed to be something that I shouldn't have seen? Rhyming pa naman yun. I hate how my gaydar senses are tingling and telling me that Calix does swing that way. Is that why, for no apparent reason, I just feel comfortable with him amidst the fact that he was biologically a man?

"You should eat, Calix. I can accompany you if you want." Or was that something I should say to a kid and not a full-grown adult like him? Well, I got lots of free time right now since all my friends were busy and everything was getting really dull so I wanted to distract myself.

"I'd love it if you could have dinner with me, Karina." Can he stop calling me that? "I mean, Kari, sorry." He must have read my mind since he apologized immediately. I knew it! This guy is really different from all the straight males I've seen.