Never Have I Ever

Twenty-Second Shot

Calix

"Is this your first time?"

"Does it matter?"

"Not really but I wanted to know if I should be gentle or not."

"Don't. Do it fast and rough, Calix. We're having sex and not making love."

We...did it?

Although I've always wished to do this with her, I never really fully expected to be given permission. It used to happen in most of my dreams but in this reality? I thought it was a far-fetched idea. Everything happened so fast that I could barely keep up and remember it all because the next thing I knew, we were both on her bed naked.

Admittedly, seeing her bare body which was more beautiful than I could ever imagine while I was on top of her gave me a sense of euphoria that I never thought possible. But more than that, having her lips on mine with her consent made me feel a certain kind of high that cannot be compared to any other drug in the world. It was crazy enough to make me lose every bit of rationality left in my system.

It was like a bewitching fantasy that I never wanted to wake up from, as I got to touch every inch of her body with my mouth and claim my way inside of her which seemed to welcome me happily. The entire box of customized condoms that I always brought along finally had its use even if I didn't exactly see this coming.

Despite giving me blue balls last night and putting me on edge the entire morning, what happened moments ago was more than enough to rewrite the memory. I lost count of how many times we did it but when I found myself conscious again, the skies already turned dark and the moon was in view from the wide floor to ceiling glass window on our left side.

And Karina? She's here sleeping peacefully in my arms with our bodies too close to one another as if no one could ever break us apart. Even if I was used to this kind of routine, no one had ever me stay in bed after doing the deed. Fuck, if I had a choice, I wouldn't stop yet.

Since day one, I've always wanted to get a taste of her and I thought doing it once would placate my hunger as I did with everyone else who had the same features as her. But really, doing it with her only intensified my desire because I can't seem to get enough of her as if she was a type of food that I can eat over and over again. Can you hear yourself right now, Calix?

Regardless of my wants, I don't want her to strain herself since she's been through a lot and her ankle just healed so I had to hold back in the best way I can. Although she kept saying to do it fast and hard, I wanted to be gentle to not hurt her since it was our first time but she kept testing my limits.

Even though everything happened in a daze, I don't think I'll ever forget that moment when she rode on top of me and made me lose my mind more than I should. Fuck, she really manages to take my breath away, every single damn time.

I may not know what the future holds because I'm not some lame hopeless romantic but I am certain of one thing and that this won't be my last time with her. This is only the beginning, Karina and I'll do everything in my power to make sure of that.

Although I never tried it before nor bothered about aftercare, I slowly got off the bed and grabbed a wet towel so I could wipe her down. It was getting cold so I didn't want her to sleep naked and wet because she might get sick.

After dressing us both in matching black silk pyjamas, I put her head in my right arm again like it was her rightful place while my free arm was on her waist, holding her close to my embrace. I never really hug, let alone cuddle, anyone I've slept with like this but with her, it felt like the most natural thing to do. Oh fuck, this is a happy demise.