Never Have I Ever

Seventeenth Shot

Kari

It was quiet. Eerily quiet–like the calm before a storm–as I opened my eyes inside an unfamiliar room and lay on a large bed with a canopy and a biological man by my side. He was sleeping soundly like a baby with his face sideways and a few inches close from mine when I turned to my left. I can't help but wonder how I managed to simply 'sleep' with someone like him.

Let's face it, anyone would jump at the chance to have sex with Calix because he's conventionally hot. Even if he isn't exactly my type since I prefer the more docile guys, I can't downright reject him if he gives his full-blown shot at seducing me. But gladly though, he hasn't done anything that much to make my heart flutter. Sigurado ka diyan, Karina Louise?

Before I could end up staring at Calix until his face melted–at baka magising pa ang isang 'to–I slowly got off the bed and moved stealthily towards the bathroom with my ankle slightly in pain. Para tuloy akong tangang umika-ika habang naglalakad pero buti na lang walang ibang tao. Except for that sleeping beauty in blue silk pyjamas.

As I washed my face and looked at my reflection in the large bathroom mirror, there it dawned on me what today was with my face looking like someone about to attend a funeral. It was the long-awaited May 4th, Ash and Elliot's wedding. It's finally doom's day, putangina.

Should I make a run for it? It's not exactly too late to back out now and escape while everyone else is asleep because it was still dark outside. Since my phone's pretty much floating in the middle of the ocean, they can't contact me nor possibly trace me so should I just go? What's the worst that could happen if a maid of honour doesn't show up?

The wedding can still go on. My friends might cut me off for life and I might never get a chance to face my fears again but who cares, right? Who knows, my friends will forgive me and I can eventually attend a wedding in a better state of mind. Right? Right? Pero puta, Karina Louise, ang lapit mo na, ngayon ka tuloy aayaw?

Letche naman. It's hard when you're battling your own mind and emotions in situations like this because you can never seem to find the right answer. Heck, there is no correct solution since it's bound to hurt you either way.

To somehow get my shit together, I grabbed the bamboo toothbrush with white bristles that were on one side of the large sink. Then, I went near the toilet seat which was a few metres away. Since there wasn't any other cleaning material I could find, I'll settle with this for now. Di naman siguro magagalit si Calix na hiniram ko 'to, nuh?

I squatted near the toilet bowl which was a bad idea because my ankle was throbbing so another 'putangina' escaped my lips.

In the end, I sat on the white tiled floor–na mas malinis pa ata sa mukha ko—then started scrubbing the toilet seat using the toothbrush while trying to make sense of my thoughts. Sige, Karina Louise, sana mahimas-masan ka sa pinaggagawa mo.

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"Do you like it?" Ha? I was pulled out of my deepest thoughts when I heard him speak. How long have I been spacing out? It just dawned on me that Calix was seated right in my front. We were on his room's balcony and had a round table full of various treats in between us with the logo of the red and white bee in every container.

"You haven't touched your food, Karina. Do you not like it?" He pointed out and I noticed that I was holding a big platinum spoon and fork–na ang bigat–while the rest were different Jollibee meals that I could recognize immediately. Did he have it delivered all the way here? If that's true, anyone would be touched especially a foodie like me.