Littlespace/Agere Oneshots

"No One Can Know" (TMNT 2012)

For mandylaren23!

Summary: Raph is a little, he uses it to try and manage his anger issues. But no one knows, and Raph wants to keep it that way...can he? A prequel to "Little Raphie", an earlier chapter.

Raph's little age: 3

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It was the middle of the night, and Raph was the only one up. He was sitting in be in a panda onesie, with a sippy cup of milk, and a teddy bear. Raph was in littlespace.

He giggled softly, hugging his teddy bear. He'd discovered littlespace a few months ago, after doing some research on it. The reason he was researching it was because of his unstable turtle temper.

Raph had always been the most hot-headed out of his brothers. And, he felt bad about that. Whilst looking up ways to cope with anger issues, Raph stumbled upon age regression. At first, he was hesitant.

Isn't that kinda weird?

How am I supposed to do that?

Will it actually work?

No. Way. In shell am I tryin' this!

But, after trying it, Raph actually learned to like it. Littlespace made him feel much calmer. He hardly felt angry when in littlespace. It worked for him and it was fun. So what if he liked to age regress?

Raph cuddled against his blankets. "Can't tell no one...what if dey make fun of me? They will, I knows dey will...can't tell em'." Raph decided firmly, sucking on a pacifier.

Raph fell asleep quickly, feeling better that no one knew. After all, he only slipped at night, when everyone was asleep. He was that scared of getting caught.

And, his family never suspected a thing. He of course still got angry out of littlespace, but he was working on that. Raph was very careful not to let anyone find out.

One night, the lair was quiet. Raph was asleep in a tiger onesie with his old red baby blanket, hus teddy bear and a pacifier in his mouth. But, he wasn't soundly sleeping. Raph was whimpering a lot.

The young turtle was in littlespace, having a nightmare. This sometimes happened on nights where the brothers had a rough fight on patrol. And they had a long, hard battle.

Raph clutched his teddy bear tighter as tears ran down his face. He was still asleep, tossing and turning. Normally, this wouldn't be a problem, right? Wrong...

In the next room over, Leo was awake. He had been up getting a glass of water. He decided to make himself some warm milk to help himself fall asleep instead.

In another room, Donnie was in his lab wide awake. This was one of those nights where he didn't sleep cause he was too preoccupied with his inventions.

Mikey was up too, drawing. He just couldn't sleep tonight. And Splinter, well, he'd gotten up for a mudnight cheesecicle to assist with his nightly cravings for food.

It seemed like no one could sleep after a rough day.

Raph's nightmare:

"You are a little? Unacceptable! You are a disgrace to the Hamato Clan!"

"You act like a baby? Wow, that's weird and gross, and we always thought you were the tough one...guess not!"

"A little? That's...weird, you're 16 Raph, you shouldn't act like that. What a freak!"

"You're so immature! A little? Ha! That's hilarious! You think we're still calling you our brother? Shell no bro!"

"S-Stop it...stop it...weave me awone...!"

......

Raph suddenly shot up in bed, whimpering softly. He thought everyone was asleep like always. Tears ran down his face, which was buried against his teddy bear. He sobbed softly, trying to be as quiet as possible.

But, Splinter's ears twitched. Even a few rooms away, he could hear his son crying softly. He quickly hurried to his second oldest son's room to see what was wrong.

Splinter softly knocked on the cracked door. "Raphael?" He whispered as Raph jumped in surprise, his cries escalating. He was now terrified of being found out.

Splinter worriedly walked in. He was surprised to see his son with little gear, but that wasn't important right now. He had to comfort his poor, scared son right now.

"Now, now, shh..." Splinter cooed, taking Raph into his lap. "D-Daddy..." Raph cried against Splinter's nighttime kimono. Splinter shushed him gently and rocked his son like he did when he was a baby.

After a few minutes, Raph calmed down and sniffled. He was in littlespace still, and was blushing out of embarrassment and fear. What would his father say about this?

"P-Pwease no be mad at me, daddy..." Raph stammered, biting at his thumb which he'd jammed into his mouth. Splinter grabbed the pacifier and handed it to his son.

"I am not mad in the slightest, my little one..." He rubbed Raph's head soothingly. "B-But...m a witl...awe chu gonna make me stop...?" Raph asked nervously.

Splinter shook his head. "Of course not aka-chan, what you are doing is not bad, it makes you feel safe and happy, so there is no reason for you to stop."

Raph sighed in relief. "Gwood..." He felt a bit better, but froze when he saw his brothers walk in. They didn't laugh though. Instead, they smiled and awed softly.

Raph whimpered and hid his face shyly. Leo, Donnie and Mikey sat by him and hugged him. They had heard everything. "It's okay Raph, we don't mind that you're a little." Leo reassured him gently.

"Yes, age regression us known to assist people who are struggling to cope with many different things, like stress or other things." Donnie added with a smile.

"It's okay dude, we love you no matter what!" Mikey said as he grinned and hugged Raph. Raph smiled and cuddled against his brothers happily.

"Your brothers are right, little one, we all love and cherish you no matter what, and we always will." Splinter added with a churr as the turtles agreed.

"F-Fank woo daddy, and bwothers..." Raph smiled as they all hugged him. "By the way, what were you dreaming about earlier?" Leo asked as Raph whimpered a bit.

"Bout' you guys findin' out an teasin' me an hatin' me...but I knows you all would never do dat, chu wuv me..." Raph said as they all hugged him closer. "Poor Raphie...we will always love you to the moon and back..."

Raph smiled more. "I wuv woo guys too, wots an wots! Raphie wuves Weo, an Nee an Lee an Ikey an daddy!" He churred as they all awed and snuggled him close.

"We love you more, little Raphie..."

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A/N: Hey Cheesecicles! I really hope you enjoy this cute chapter! Aww, poor Raphie!

~Kittymasterofall14
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