Through Good and Bad

Landscape

        The next morning I went to the pit and sat in my usual spot and Jax and Tanner looked at me and had a worried expression. I shook my head and looked at my plate. I had eggs, sausage, and bacon, but I wasn't hungry. I spent the whole night at the chasm looking down into its dark depths and hadn't gone to bed one. 

        After everyone was called I walked into the room and sat on the chair and noticed Eric in the room. ¨You can leave we won't be needing your assistance today.¨ I said with anger lacing through my voice. He had red rimmed eyes, his hair was askew in every direction. Four looked between us confused. He opened his mouth to speak to me, but I just shook my head at him. ¨Remember what I told you. This time I won't hesitate.¨ 

        ¨Whatever's going on here will have to wait.¨ Four said impatient. I didn't even struggle with the needle this time, because I didn't care. Eric saw the change in me and he knew it effected me greatly. I went into my fear landscape and delt with my father again and delt with it how a dauntless would. Then what surprised me most, I had another fear. A fear I didn't know was their. Eric and all my loved was were their. Eric was standing by someone, and he was kissing them, but he was dating me. Why was he doing this to me. Then he pulled a gun from his waist band and shot me. I lay on the floor bleeding and he was laughing at me. 

        I woke up gasping and crying. Eric was looking at the screen then turned to me. ¨So what was my time?¨ I said a little to quick. 

        ¨Twenty-five minutes. How did you go from fast to slow?¨ Four questioned. I shrugged again and walked out. I ran to the initiate entrance and climbed on the net and just lay their thinking about my fear. I felt the net shift under me as someone got on. I immidatley know who it is. 

        ¨So I know what you said and I'll take my chances.¨ He said as he lay beside me. I ignored him and got off the net. ¨Wait I didn' mean for you to see!¨ He cried out.

        I turned on him, ¨You didn't mean for me to see? So you meant for it to happen but not for me to see. Go be public with her.¨ I turned to walk away but he grabbed my wrist. I whirled around and socked him on the nose. He stumbled back startled. ¨I told you. Do. Not. Talk. To. Me¨ I said pausing after each word. Then I ran to the chasm. I hung my legs over the edge and layed my head on the railing wishing it would all be over. Then Dean came in. He ran at me and kicked my ribs. I fall back and he pins me down. ¨You should never have beat me. You crossed the line.¨ He seethed. He starts punching me in the face and on the ribs then he stands for one final kick. The kick was to the head and I passed out. I don't know what happened after that, but for some reason, I was at peace in the dark. I wonder if I was to wake up that everything would be ok. I guess I'll just have to find out won't I?

        If I could wake up.

        I was trying as hard as I could to wake up, but I couldn't. Everyday, I heard people come in. It was the same people evrytime. Although I wish it was only two of them. Jax, Tanner, and Eric visit everday and I always heard them talk to me. Jax and Tanner had told me Dean got cut, and Eric kept begging me to wake up that he was sorry. For right now, I didn't care what he wanted. I only cared about Jax and Tanner. They're the only reason I would wake up. 

        They said it had been two weeks, that I needed to try my hardest. One day Eric came in and just sat their, tracing the tattoos on my arm. ¨Remember this tattoo?¨ He asked. ¨Think of that and wake up, please. Remember, I am Dauntless I fight for what I believe in. I am dauntless... I am brave. Please I know you can fight this. I can't live without you.¨ As if by some miracle after three weeks of sleep I woke up. He didn't notice until I spoke. 

        ¨Deal with it. You cheated and you know it.¨ He looked shocked and his face looked like he hadn't slept for years. He had red rimmed eyes, messy hair. He look like he had just went to the bar before coming here to. 

        ¨Please, these past few weeks have been excruciating.¨ I shrugged, bad choice. A jolt of pain shoots through my body, but I don't show that it hurt. 

        ¨Nurse.¨ I hollered. She came right away. ¨Can you get him out please. Can you get Jax and Tanner for me?¨ I said sweetly. She nodded and I told her thanks. Hurt, pain, and anger flashed across Eric's face before she escorted him out. Jax and Tanner arrived not long after. 

        ¨Hey.¨ They both said with a smile. Then we started talking non-stop until the nurse came and said I needed to rest. They left saying there goodbyes and I fell back asleep. 

So right now Rose is having a little bit of a depressing time. I don't know how long I will keep her unconscious, but she will wake up. Things might get better, might get worse, or might be the same, but either way she will wake up. Please comment and vote. Sorry I published a half way done part apparently it didn't save so I re-wrote this one.