Through Good and Bad

Waking Up to a Surprise

     Waking up in the infirmary three days later was hard, but I did it. I woke up to Eric holding my hand and talking to me. I reacted immediately and pulled away. He looked at me in shock. "What? What's wrong?" He panics.

     "Why are you here? What do you want?" My voice trembles. I try to sit up, but pain snakes its way through my head. I try to sit up again and groan in pain. Eric comes over and puts a hand on my shoulder. He pushes me back down on the bed and says,

     "You've taken quite a beating. You should slow down, don't move to fast." He remarked.

     "Well, last I heard, you're the one that told him to hurt me. So, this is a non-asshole area. If you don't know what that means, it means no assholes aloud, so get out." I retorted, my voice rising with each word.

     "What did you mean when you said I told him to hurt you. Why in God's name would I want to hurt you? I would never harm you." He stated calmly. I snorted at that knowing it was a lie. "Do you think I'm lying? Well, I'm not. You want to know how I'm not lying? Because I love you. There are you happy Rose. I said it, I admit it. I love you. I have wanted, no needed, you since you got here. I'll admit that I am an asshole to you, but that's because I have never felt this before. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to do it. When you broke it off, I didn't know how to react."

     "So, this is what it sounds like." I sighed.

     "What?" He looked confused.

     "This is what it sounds like. You confessing feelings." I sighed an even deeper sigh.

     "I have never felt so deeply about someone before. I've always been-" he tried looking for the right words.

     "The once and done type of guy." I finished. He looked at me with an exasperated look.

     "Yes, basically. I'm so sorry that I ever hurt you. I wish I could go and take it back, take back the pain I've caused you. I wish it was me that could hold you tight at night. I wish it was me that got to scare away other guys and hold your hand. I wish it was me that you dream about. I wish it was me that got to steal kisses. And mostly, I wish it was me that could make you laugh. I love your laugh, it's like honey. So sweet and wonderful to hear, but I've realized that it won't be me to make those things happen. And for that, I am so sorry that I ever hurt you. Just know that I will always be their to protect you." He confessed. He looked at me with sadness and longing.

     Little did he know, I did dream about him. I wanted to be with him, I needed to be with him. But, I was with Four, in a happy relationship. How could I tell Four this. I couldn't tell Four, I love him. I want to be with him. The thing is, I can't tell if I want to be in a relationship with him or just friends anymore. I've been wanting to get back with Eric, but now that he has confessed his feelings for me, it has made me want to get with him more. I looked at him with shock on my face and I tried to mask the shock, but I couldn't.

     "Get better soon." He said then walked out leaving me dumbfounded. I couldn't believe he just told me all of this. The nurse came in soon after, gave me medicine, and released me to go do whatever. I went back to my apartment, deciding I needed time alone to think. I took out my keys and heard heavy footsteps behind me. I turned to look and saw Eric walking towards me. I unlocked the door and walked in, as I went to close the door his hand snaked to the edge and opened it further. He walked in and looked to see if I would react in any way.

     I walked farther into the apartment and said, "close the door at least." I sighed. I noticed I sighed a lot lately. I went to the kitchen and put my keys on the counter. I went to the refrigerator and grabbed a drink waited for him to start speaking. When he didn't start talking, I turned to see if he was in the kitchen. He was and he was staring intently at my face. "Eric," I said, "what are you doing here?"

     "I wanted to apologize about earlier. I didn't mean to tell you all of that. I just wanted you to know how I felt. I know I probably put a lot of stress on you, I know I did, because it put a lot on me. Everything I said, if you want to forget it, you can." He was staring at the floor now.

     "Eric, its not that I don't want to forget it, I don't, but I didn't expect it. I'm in a relationship and now I don't know what to do. Thank you for telling me your true feelings, it's the first time you've ever opened up to me. Anytime you open up to me I'll listen because you don't do ot enough. Now, I just don't know how to feel." I put my hand over my eyes and let out a long and meaningful sigh. I heard his footsteps coming closer and I looked up. I looked up just in time for him to plant a kiss on my lips.

     I gasped against his lips and he pulled me closer. His arms snaked slowly around my waist and my hands slowly went around his neck. I found myself replying to his touch. His kiss left a trail of sparks and his tongue slid over my bottom lip asking for permission. I granted it to him and his tongue slid over mine. We fought for dominance and he won. He pushed me up against the counter and his hands gripped my hips tightly. I moaned and he pulled me against him even closer. His hands started moving up my sides and brought my shirt up with it. I lifted my arms so he could get it off and he pulled it off quickly.

     My hands moved from around his neck to the him of his shirt and he looked at me with a smile. I pulled his shirt up and he lifted his arms so I could get hos shirt off. When the shirt was off, all I could do was stare. My hand lay flat on his abs and moved slowly up his chest. Once my hands were on his chest my fingers splay across it taking in the muscle and toned feeling. I smiled in amazement and he let me take it all in. His hands were currently resting on the small of my back and his grip was getting tighter the more my hands roamed his sculpted chest. I looked up and met eye to eye with him and I raised up on to my tiptoes. When I got level to his lips, he smiled and I connected the gap between us.

     The kiss became more fervent and he lifted me up and took me to the the bedroom. He sat down first then sat me on top of him to where I straddled his hips. We were still kissing, but it was getting more and more heated.  I pushed him down to wear he lay flat and I was laying on top of him. The exposed skin that was touching was on fire. I wanted him more than anyone I've ever wanted before. He flopped us around to where he was on top and I had the worst thought that could possibly come at this point. "Stop!" I yelled. He reacted immediately and pulled away.

     "What? What's wrong?" He gasped out of breath. We were both out of breath, but we couldn't do this. I couldn't do this.

     "Eric!" I yelled. "I have a boyfriend, I can't do this. I can't believe I did this. What have I done?" I said as I started rambling incoherent things that even I couldn't understand. I grabbed a shirt from my dresser and ran into the kitchen and threw his shirt at him. I was still mumbling when Eric gripped my upper arm.

     "Stop! You're just going to make yourself feel even guiltier. Look, I'll make a deal with you, alright? How about in return for my silence, you come with me tomorrow to get the new initiates. Deal?" I nodded. "Good, we leave at eight a.m. sharp." He said. I walked him to the door to make sure he left. Before he opened the door, he turned to me and gave me another long kiss. I responded, then I pushed him out making sure no one was watching. After he left I went to bed feeling exhausted and laid down. I went over all of this evenings events in my head and remembered I had to take my medicine. After I took it I went to bed still replaying everything that has happened.

     I fell asleep feeling like I had betrayed Four. Indeed I did betray him, but I wanted Eric in every possible way and I knew for a fact, Eric wanted me to. I fell asleep with this thought in kind. What was I going to do about Four?

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