"I'm not afraid of commitment. I'm afraid of surrendering control too quickly - of placing my heart into hands that won't know how to hold it."
- Baeu Taplin • F e a r O f C o m m i t m e n t
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2 weeks later
I rang the doorbell and turned around looking at all the other houses. I was feeling like shit, but one thing that's for sure is that you'll never find me dressed up as no sad bitch! I made sure I wore the perfect shirt, if I wanted this man to forgive me I had to come prepared.
My phone dinged and it was a message from Bruno, I rolled my eyes not even bothering to read his text and blocked his stupid ass. The sound of the door being pulled open caused me to turn around, I quickly pulled the hem of my shirt even further apart leaving just enough cleavage. Surely there he was, he stared at me and let out a heavy sigh.
"Before you slam the door in my face, I have news and I want to apologize." I blurted out as calmly as I could.
He chewed the inside of his cheek before he stepped aside and waved towards his living room. I let out a breathe I didn't know I was holding and went inside.
"Have a seat." He said as he closed the door.
I sat down and he leaned up against the wall just staring at me.
"I'm listening." He said folding his arms across his chest.
"Umm okay..." I bit my lip trying to gathering everything that I wanted to say in my head. "I'm very sorry. You have every right to hate me and be angry and not want to fix anything between us. You also had every right to call off the wedding and go your own way, you're so right you were completely open and honest with me from the very start and I took that for granted. I should've done the same thing with you, but I can assure you that once my feelings were solid and I was sure about you I ended everything with Bruno. Way before we were ever intimate. When you told me you were planning on being celibate I still went ahead and ended things between me and Bruno because I loved you and I knew in that moment I wanted to be with you. I'm so sorry, you don't have to forgive me but I just felt like you needed the truth. I might not have been honest and true to you from the start but the minute my feelings for you were there I was only true to you, I'd never given myself to another man the way I gave myself to you. I was all in, you met my family that doesn't just happen with any guy. I love you so much Kenny, I do. I wanted to marry you, I couldn't wait to walk down the aisle with you." I confessed as I wiped away my tears.
He came around and sat down opposite me. I dug into my bag and pulled out my blood test results.
"I'm also pregnant." I said handing him the paper.
His eyes widened as he took the paper from me.
"Umm... never in my life did I ever picture myself being a single mom." I mumbled, more disappointed in myself. "But I'd really love for you to be on this journey with me, as co-parents obviously." I said swallowing the lump in my throat.
