Total Eclipse of the Heart

Living My (empty) Life

Missing You - BTOB

My life is incomplete
It's missing you
Another day passed today, nothing different
Being alone doesn't feel awkward at all
I thought I couldn't live without you but this is my life now
But I do feel a little empty, I guess I'm still at that place

I'll let it all out so I can feel relieved
But it's alright to care about what happened in the past
When I think I can see the answer
Sometimes, it becomes a prison that traps me
But time only goes forward
And I've done nothing

You're still in my heart

I try telling myself that I'll be alright
But at the end of the day, it's you again
I thought I couldn't live without you but this is my life now
But I do feel a little empty, I guess I'm still at that place

My heart still wants you

I was missing you and another day passed
I was missing you and another year passed
This is how I live
As I long for you, long for you

Like tangled hair after you get up
My days have become a mess too
This is on you
I try to act like I'm fine
But my depressed face
And your traces that are everywhere
That's all on you
I still can't forget you
Come back to me
Even if we'll have the same ending again

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Almost a year had passed. Darryn had changed girlfriend 10 times, Ryan's hair had reached his back, Ashley still shameless but cute and bouncy as always (kinda remind Bai LuoYin of Yang Meng, the only difference is she is a girl), and Felix, well Felix is Felix, he is still captivating and charming, many people after him, girls, boys, women, men all alike. Felix really had a hard time because of them, but he is a nice guy, he didn't have the heart to ignore them. Bai LuoYin in the other hand also didn't lack pursuers, but he is originally a cold and aloof person, not very easy to be approached, so it's hard for people to even talk to him. That's why he, himself, is often confused, how can he talk so easily with Darryn, Ryan, and Ashley in the first place. Those three along with Felix are the only people he is close with.  He talked to other people from time to time but only when it is necessary.  He kept himself busy with university life. He joined all activities he can get himself into. Aside from his study, he went all the way from Thai Boxing with Darryn, diving with Ryan, Yoga with Ashley,  basket club with Felix, and of course hanging out with 4 of them. 

But when the night came and he was alone in his room, he will feel lonely again, his eyes wouldn't automatically shut. He did all the activities to try to make himself tired so he can sleep, but it didn't work. His mind kept wandering off to that particular person. The particular person he tried so hard not to think about.

Bai LuoYin sat on the balcony smoking. It's been a while since he lasts smoked, he didn't feel like smoking since he was here but tonight he felt the urge to smoke. So he just sat there, smoking, looking at the sky, somehow among the stars all he can see is that person's image; his nose, his smile, his tiger teeth, his eyes... Bai LuoYin felt that those eyes were looking straight at him, he felt that he can reach him... Bai LuoYin closed his eyes, but when he closed his eyes, the horrible scene flashed andi infiltered his mind again. He immediately opened his eyes and sighed...

"GuHai, are you still waiting for me?  It's been a year since I last see you, but I can still remember you clearly. Why can't I stop thinking about what had happened? Until when are you going to torture me like this?"  

A song is faintly heard from the next door, it must be Ashley's song

we'll be wishing on the same star, looking at the same moon
when you're thinking of me baby, I'll be thinking of you...
and no matter where I go, I  will be there with you
wishing on the same star, looking at the same moon... (Wishing on the same star -- Keedy)