Total Eclipse of the Heart

He and Him

I'm sorry but I'm just thinking of the right words to say
(I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be
(I promise you)
And if I had to walk the world I'd make you fall for me
I promise you, I promise you I will

The Promise -- When in Rome

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Even though GuHai and Ty's faces aren't particularly the same, somehow Ty gave Bai LuoYin the same vibe as GuHai. Ty's tall and robust body that evincing noble and military demeanor, his playfulness, and his attitude, all give Bai LuoYin the vibe of GuHai. The difference is, that Ty is a very gentle person. He is very patient and considerate. Not only to Bai LuoYin but also to everybody, doesn't matter who they are. He will hold the door for someone behind him when he enters a room, he will help the elderly crossing the road, he will buy food for the homeless people, he climbed a tall tree to help a crying boy retrieve his kite that got stuck on the tree and all those little things... those tiny little things that might be considered as norms but not many people are willing to do it. GuHai not like that at all, it's not that he is not gentle but GuHai only gentle towards him. He is cold and detached himself from other people. If GuHai is a mountain that stand by himself then Ty would be the wind, who greet people and touch everything on his way. And the way he talked to Bai LuoYin... it is very soft-spoken... and gentle... as if he's not talking to his brother's friend, but more like talking to his....lover? Even so, Bai LuoYin always felt fidgety around him, he either suddenly stuttered, knocked something off, or had the urge to run away from the room whenever Ty is present. 

"Ugh! What's wrong with you Bai LuoYin???" Asked Bai LuoYin to himself. "Why do you always feel nervous around Ty? Why???? Is it because he reminds you so much of GuHai? They don't even look alike! Ok, fine, He is as manly as GuHai, his height, his body, his demeanor, but he is gentle, he is soft-spoken, he is... wait, what the hell are you thinking Bai LuoYin? Why are you comparing the two?  And why are you even thinking about Ty? It's not like that you like him or something, or that he likes you or something...but....but he's been very nice to me, even nicer than he is to Felix...Does he like me?.... NO!...... NO! NO! NO! get a hold of yourself Bai LuoYin, he doesn't like you, he's just being nice to you because you are his brother's roommate slash best friend....yes, that's it. he is nice to you because of Felix. Don't think funny thought!"

But Bai LuoYIn couldn't stop thinking of GuHai every time Ty was around and it made him super nervous all the time. On the other hand, Ty stayed friendly and gentle as ever. Between Bai LuoYin nervousness and Ty's gentleness, Felix who was stuck between his best friend and his brother can only shake his head and sigh. 

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Bai LuoYin was just came out from his room when he saw Ty was sitting at the dining room having his breakfast. When Yu saw him, he smiled and greeted Bai LuoYin, Bai LuoYin only managed to say good morning before he nervously find excuses to go back to his room, but before he was able to, Ty called him,
"Bai LuoYin, can I talk to you for a second? "
"Eh? What? Oh, Ok. " Bai LuoYin reluctantly sat in front of Ty.
"LuoYin, did I do something that upset you? Or is there something in me that make you don't like me?"
"What do you mean? Of course not."
"But why you always fidgety around me, always find reasons to go everytime I'm around?"
"I did not!"
"LuoYin, it's very obvious you know."

People will be afraid of the unknown, but they will also be inevitably attracted by the unknown. And right now, this unknown creature that came out of nowhere had made Bai LuoYin not only afraid but also allured. This is dangerous... Very very dangerous.

"I... I just... " Without finishing his sentence, Bai LuoYin took a deep breath, held it in, then exhaled, trying to keep himself calm.

"Look, if I'm making you uncomfortable by staying here, I will move right away. I'm sorry if I did something that make you uncomfortable around me. I really didn't mean that. If you could just tell me what it is, I will fix it. And if it's not enough, I will find some other place to stay. I will only be in town for another month or two before I will go to the military training camp. I miss my baby brother. When he left Korea, I was still on duty so I wasn't able to send him off. That's why I stay here for a while, but I will move to a hotel tonight if you really can't stand me. "

"No! No please don't move out. I'm sorry, I was just... I don't mind you stay here Ty. I really do. But I just... " Bai Luo Yin couldn't find any excuses, his brilliant brain suddenly frozen as if a wire that connected the circuit in his brain got disconnected.

"So, what's the problem?"

Finally Bai LuoYin couldn't help himself anymore and blurted out the truth.
"You remind of someone that I tried so hard to forget. The moment you appeared on the front door, that very moment, as if he was right in front of me. I'm sorry if I giving you the feeling that I avoided you. Well.. I did, but not because I don't like you or anything, but because of that particular reason only."

"Do I really look like that person? "

"Not your face, but your demeanor. Your body built, and your military background."

"Was he in military too?"

"No, he grew up on military compound. His father is the military one. So he always have the vibe of a soldier. "

"May I ask who he is?"

"Just someone I tried to forget. I'm sorry, I just can't talk about him anymore. "

"I understand, but do you know that talking to someone can ease your burden? I'm not saying that you have to talk about it to me, but whatever it is that's weighing your heart and mind, you should let it out. Don't let it rot in your heart. It won't do anything good."

"Thank you for your suggestion, I will keep that in mind."

"Bai LuoYin... "

"Yes? "

"Are we good?" Ty gave Bai LuoYin his sweetest smile.
Bai LuoYin couldn't help but raised up his lips upwards, his heart seems at ease now as he gently answered,
"We're good."

"Bai LuoYin..." Ty called him again.

"Hmm?"

"Don't run away from me again..."

Bai LuoYin felt Ty's words was a bit ambiguous. He tilted his head, his forehead wrinkled as if he was thinking about something heavy, but he answered anyway with a more ambiguous answer, "I won't. "

"Good, I promise I won't do anything that can hurt you. "

Bai LuoYin laughed and felt that Ty was a bit silly. "What hurt? Am I so easily to get hurt? Ty, you're funny."

"I'm not only funny, I'm good looking, I'm down  to earth, sweet, caring, a real top quality boyfriend material."

"Hahaha, then I will help you find a girlfriend then. I've got plenty of friends that looking for a person with a top quality boyfriend material like you"

This time Ty only smiled and winked. In his heart he recorded everything Bai LuoYin had told him and made a note to himself to make Bai LuoYin forget that person.

"I will do my best to make you forget that person Bai LuoYin, I promise I will make you the happiest person in the world. I promise I will do my best to make you fall for me like how I've fallen for you."

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Hallo everybody, sorry for the very very late update. I was very busy with the opening of the new school year, now that all schools started to go offline again. I will try to update more often, but sorry in advance if I couldn't make it happen soon 🙏
Hope you enjoy the story 😊🙏