Total Eclipse of the Heart

Paint It Black

I look inside myself
And see my heart is black
I see my red door
I must have it painted black

Maybe then, I'll fade away
And not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up
When your whole world is black

No more will my green sea
Go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing
Happening to you

If I look hard enough
Into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me
Before the morning comes

Paint It Black -- The Rolling Stones

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There was not a single hair of a person to be found on the streets. The only thing out here was the sand dancing in the light of the sunset. GuHai enjoyed looking at the flurry; through them, he could see the paths of the wind.

Wind is a very special thing, with no shape, colour, or smell. And yet you could see it, in the fallen leaves, in the drifting sand, in the swirls of dust on the ground. It had the same smell as the drying leaves, but at the same time it smelled white and cool, and also like the red smoke of gunpowder......

GuHai was standing near what used to be a river. The river was dry, only a large swathe of rocks and sands covered the bank all the way to the middle of the river.

He looked at the sky and sigh. He has been in this place for a year. When he collapsed after the fight, he was captured by the left over of the warlord army. They tortured him in anyway possible, but GuHai refused to give up. As he laid on the cold floor, all he think about is that he can't die. Not yet, not now. Bai LuoYin hasn't forgive him yet. He have to survive until the day come.

He was rescued by his uncle's and his father's men. They managed to found him in critical moment before he was about to be prosecuted. But GuHai doesn't want to go back home, so he ran away and met some townies that managed to run during the fight and came back when it was over. They took care if him until he recover and thanked him as the person who have saved them from a living hell. When his uncle and his father people found him again, he refused to leave because he wanted to help the people there to rebuild their town. He wanted to wash away his sin, his dark heart, learn to be humble and.... be human.... So his uncle and father can only let him stay in that country.

Even so, Guhai's nightmare continued. Now, it's not only fill with Bai LuoYin but also the horrible scenes of the fight. The blood, the death bodies, the smell of fun powder, all merged into one. He didn't even dare to close his eyes now, but even if he doesn't close his eyes, the sight continues to appear in front of him...Torturing him...

Until almost 2 years afterwards...

"Brother GuHai! Brother GuHai!"
He heard someone calling him. He looked at the direction of the voice's source, the voice belong to a young boy, the son of the townies that rescued him.

"Yes, what is it Charles? " He answered.

"Someone looking for you. He looks just like you. Say brother GuHai, are you twins?"

There's only one person can be called as his twins. His beloved cousin, GuYang.

"That must be my cousin. We do look alike, but we are not twins." Explained GuHai.

"Oh I see, then let's go, don't let your cousin wait for too long."

GuHai smiled and followed the boy. As they reached the boy's house, also the place he's been living at during those time he's in the country, he saw a tall and lean figure with a face almost identical with him. The man didn't say anything, only looking at him coldly, there's no trace of smile on that handsome face.